Do i have PTSD or similar?

[VooDoo1022]

About 13 years ago, I was falsely convicted by my exwifes sole doing of vindication for retaining a gal pal so my child had a playmate.

Anyhow because my ex took the kids and moved away.
Anyhow she calls me saying somebody kidnapped her and my three toddlers kids. Of course my mind was racing, heart pounding, crying etc. It was extremely traumatic to the point of debilitating.

Next series of events... my exwife poisoned me with antifreeze immediately before talking to a detective in regards of our daycare provider abusing my child.
It turned out it was my exwife being the culprit. Another devastating blow.

My exwife turns her potential criminal conviction with over 45 counts pending, into a sex offense investigation on me.
To prove my innocence I took and passed a polygraph.  Then offered "via advice from child services" a full psycho-sexual screening.
Its a full 72 hour battery of tests to determine if and what if any deviant behavior is present.

I think this was my breaking point......

Not knowing anything about the "test battery" I had no idea what I was in for.
They strap you down in full body restraints, head, feet, hands, arms, knees, except your waist area to attach a penile plethesmograph and to run cables from an EKG and they even hook up an EEG.

Creepy but not the worst parts ....

They hook wires upto your eyes to pull them open and place a gel eye moisturizing glob into your eyes.
They force you to watch soft porn like undressing.  I don't watch porn so its kinda offensive to me. But wait.. it goes from adults of all types and races, genders, then it moves to children of all ages and gender. Under the "sedatives" they gave me, the only thing I could think of was. Where is that damn kids clothing, why would their momma let them walk around like that??
Anyhow it goes from very subtle to itty bitty babies being gang raped, then upto children being raped, mutilated, limbs being cut off and screaming ungodly in horrific pain. Then ultimately they move onto all of the above...including Nazi war goings on. But ultimately it goes from torture, to actual murdering of children of all ages them raping the dead bodies..

Thankfully I cried through most I could then to the point I was screaming so they ball gagged me. By the third day....I was a HUGE RAGING BALL OF FURY AND ANGER I've never fathomed any human could possibly reach that point of Rage...

Here's my current symptoms since then.
I'm extremely protective of children,  better not be seen smacking your kid with me around,  I loose it!!! Yelling only but aware of my possibility of physical violence.  
Whenever I hear a little girl call for "daddy" in a store, I turn around expecting to see my "then toddlers".

For about three years I couldn't be around any child in the store because of them horrific things I was forced to watch. I would simply break down and cry very very painful tears.

I'm still a huge ball of hate, rage, zero tolerance attitude ..... except to my daughters .. my heart and soul feels at peace with them around.  I'm very protective of them.

[PTSDsufferer7]

When i was 13 years old i was sexually assaulted, my trauma turned into an obsession with war crimes.
I also became extremely hyper vigilante, had extreme rage, my psychologist diagnosed me with psychosis 3 years after the event, I'm now back in action.
The man years who had assaulted me when i was 13 years old came back again and tried to rape me. The police have arrested the man and i had physically assaulted him(a huge relief i you ask me cause i had so much rage bottled inside me.)
To this day i have extreme hatred towards pedophiles, child abusers,Homosexuals and rapists.
So yeah i do think you have PTSD.

[Kermit the Hermit]

ptsd is so wide

id say yes and also counseling

i was a response officer

i was on accidents and saw to much

holding a dying child because mom tried to race the train

5 5 year old shot my cop friend at a domestic

and more you dont need to hear

i saw a side of life and people you have nightmares over

im adhd behavior rehab was locking me in a dark closet all day

i dont have emotions anymore like blank paper cold empty

5 years of counseling i have as good of a handle as i will ever get

what do you see when the demons come for you in the dark

we will never be fixed but we can be more in control and tought to focus on other things

[drifter0213]

I seem to still have that rage that sets me off I was traumatized in the USAF I had flashbacks of the trauma nightmares and I wanted to hurt others I wanted someone to understand what I went through I started to abuse alcohol and drugs ive been clean almost three years I hope this helps ok :)