I generally dont ever post things, but im very concerend and have no one i can confide in totalk to about this issue. My bf and i have been together for 4years and everything bewtween has been wonderful. Recently on jan 3 he out of nowhere had an axiety/panic attack and so i had to call the ambulence for him and got rushed to the hospital imidieatly. They took blood samples and just told him that it was a minor anxiety attack and it was no big deal, just to take deap breaths and relax, stay calm those next couple days. Two days later pass and on the Jan 5th I came over to his house for dinner, he started yelling at me and his atitude towards me complelety changed. Iv never seen him so angry and upset and emotionaly distressed, I asked him if he was upset with me about soemthing since I hadnt done anything wrong to **** him off (he harldy ever yells or gets mad-hes very passive and calm) and he simply told me"you stress me out, you make me hurt, you take my energy away, i need a break from you" i was surprised and mortified and scared, becuase I am just a simple collge student spending as much time I can with him when im not on campus studying, i couldnt belive he blmaed me for that? I simply said ok, whatever works between nus. Days later no talk or communication he posts on facebook that hes single. it not like him to tkae our realtionship public, and he said a break not a break up, and its weird that he wanted one since everything between is great, we dearly love each other so much, hardly fought or argued. Well i kept calling him, still no answer and then yesterday he emails me this "I'm getting sicker and I haven't got the time nor the desire to talk to you, I am in a dark place, angry, suicidal, i dont want to talk to u or about us, were over im done with you im out paryting, if alreadhy kissd and aprocahded this skanky girl, i dont want to be with u or anybody i just want to figure out me, im very sick right now, i dont know whats wrong with me, i feel like theres something wrong with my head like im going crazy kat, i gota go its hurting me tlak to talk you, i cant talk to you anymroe, Happy to let you know I'll be starting pycho therapy next week and I'm sure you will defiently make a most interesting topic for discussion with my phychyatrist "My paranoid ex girl friend. bye"
Since then we havnt talked and im furious,mad, upset, sadden, hes saying all these horrible things about me, when hes acting like a wierd strange crazy bipolar diffrent person, i dont even know who hes become anymore, after 4 years of being together iv never ever ever seen him act like this and iv always been by his side. WHy has he pusehd me away? why doesnt he want me there with him to seek help, why is he hurting me like this, i feel like i have myself to blame but what have i done. please help, if i dont get an answer soon, im going to blam myself and keep thinking its my fault hes going crazy? =( i cry so much im scared for him, i just want to be there for him, i feel like he really will kill himself if i call or try to contact him, and it breaks my heart that not even his family who iv had an amazing relationship will pick up my txt or calls.. what do i do?