Need support

[Dylan465]

I hurt myself very bad in July 2005 and will never forget that date. I was very much into bodybuilding, and every type of work out except running, but tried even that. Anyway, it was only 1 month after moving, I was psyched and had the idea of getting rugged and hiking. I pulled my back and after the back pain left the pain went to both legs. I was in so much pain, I wanted or thought about going to the ER often. I went to a chiropractor, masseuur, had an MRI. It showed damage like every disk bulging, stenosis, foraminal and biforaminal stenosis, DDD, etc. I tried, muscle relaxants, pain pills. Everything made me sick and still in pain. I weaned off ativan, ultram, got off the rest easy because I guess I wasn't on them long enough. Now I am on MS Contin and know in time I can get off of that. I have a bad stigma of drugs b/c I used when I was young. I hate the fact they are controlling me and if I don't take it, I'll get sick. The MS contin at 30 mg 2x a day, isn't doing much. I'm on a rollercoaster. I was on 15 mg, 2x a day and got off and should have stayed off.

I guess I am looking for encouragement or anyone going through something similiar so we can help each other. I know marking my calendar has always helped me.

I am so tired of taking these pills, I never abused them but hate to know, if I don't have them I'll be sick and am willing to see if they are really helping. Somedays I take them, and I hurt anyway.

If anyone wants to talk and support each other and break away from this together, let me know. I know all things are possible and it may take a month or 2 but I'll be free and pray that my pain isn't as bad as I thought.

Blessings to all who are trying to get their lives together. I messed up as a teenager but spent my adult life as a health nut. This was a nightmare I had-- being back on drugs and it's come true and I want off.    Reported Report this

[Dylan465]

Hi, you never mentioned the name of the forum. I'd like to see myself there, but where is it? lol

What has worked for me, is just cutting back, but the more you know the better.
Thanks.

Hope to see you there, just tell me where it is.

Thank you.

[Tuckamore]

Hi Again Dylan,

I agree that the Substance Abuse Forum may be more beneficial for you with withdrawing from opiates. Please know that you are always welcome here.

Don't forget to discuss this with your physician. You'll need his/her support and monitoring.

Best of luck to you. We'll watch for your updates.

Take Care,
Tuck

[peaceinknowing]

There's another forum that's an addiction forum that could help you as well. NOT saying that you're addicted to the medicines, but there are a lot of members there that can tell you how to stop the pills with minimal withdrawl symptoms like getting sick, just as you've mentioned. You'd be surprised at how amazing the people are over there.

Hope to see you there!

[Mollyrae]

Hi Dylan:

Come on over to my support group for chronic pain sufferers. It's designed for ppl like you and I...I too suffer greatly.....See you there


http://www.medhelp.org/forums/The-Chronic-Pain-Couch/show/413?camp=msc&;;