this disorder gives us an almost x-ray vision into people's hearts...the people with golden hearts (about 10% of the population, I've found) will accept you regardless of any discomforts they may experience around you...the people with regular red hearts do not accept you but don't go out of their way to bullyor harrass you (about 40%), and then there are the people with black hearts (about half the population) who bully and harrass you. Sad but true...
Yes dude! That is the positive energy we need. I'm doing exactly like you and I have improved 75-99% in all situations, in terms of reactions. I just went on a 3 day trip, with tons of family, talking with lots of strangers, and the patm was not there at all. and boy was i having a few beers those days :P (i never binge drink now otherwise). I wasn't smoking pot and I was relaxed, my body and mind stayed busy and calm the whole time, which I believe is key. I'm 25 y/o unfit male and i just started going to hot yoga and its really great, for sweating and stress relief, really really recommend it.
And patmhalp: My amazing ex-gf (my biggest support in all this) told me something last month that totally shut that attitude out of me for good. the 'this is a permanent disease and im ****** for life' attitude. She practices natural medicine, and a major tenet of the medicine is you need to believe you can get better. You literally need to think everyday, "this condition CAN and WILL go away" if you don't believe yourself, go for a 30 minute (and don't skimp on the minutes here) run. Then repeat. You need to build self-esteem again. At least that's what I need to do the most, and I feel that through other peoples' posts as well. If you stay depressed and anxious about PATM, well guess what, those are the worst ******* parts by FAR. And ultimately its your choice to overcome that. You will probably need help. I do. From friends, therapists, family, strangers. Trust me dude, I've had this condition 5 years and only in the past 2 months I've decided to make really progress on this condition everyday. And it has paid off ridiculously. I want to go back to school in January, while last year that was unthinkable. You, and I need to believe we can get better, and do the things that will reduce the anxiety and depression (excercise! therapy! hot yoga ;P).
OK i always write too much about PATM, but i'm open to talk more if interested.
TL;DR, keep chin up, do chin ups.
I'm afraid we won't get through this and this is permanent and stuck with us forever as many people here have had this for years on end some even 10+ years. With no cure in sight as doctors don't even acknowledge or believe us in the first place, I appreciate your positive attitude though.