Why does it hurt everyone ???

[lostsoulz85]

Hi everyone i was checking on PTSD earlier today and i never realized how much I am suffering and what i am doing to myself .I am a recovered cocaine/heroin addict I just quit smoking in Feb along with all my narcotics I took but now I am in so much pain. I am not going to pretend I don't know what Methamphetimines are because I do and my ex's were addicts and i told myself i would never ...Well i lied to myself I have using for about 4 weeks now i look sick and i am more sad but now inside i am alone my parents just took my 6 yr old and my 16 month old I ws very suicidal so they took them I do take care of my kids and myself but I cant stop i hate it but it makes me forget reality ????

[margypops]

You may find a lot of help from others going through similar on the Addictions Forum,Have you had any counseling help to be able to quit using the drugs? it is possible you need that outside help as it cant be an easy thing to do by your self.You could give it another go as once you are freee you will be able to be with your family, if you want to do it there will be help out there for you.,I know its not easy ,good luck  

[freebird227]

If you are feeling suicidal then you need to get help asap.You can go to the emergancy room,or call the crisis hotline to get you through the night.
Post on the addiction forum for more help and suggestions on getting off the dope, there is a lot of experience on that site
Addiction is ugly and yes it will cause us to loose everything that matters.
    You and your children and your parents will be in my prayers.