Thank y'all I will do that
This might sound wrong so I apologise in advance if it does, but giving up might be just what you need to do. I know a couple who tried for years, gave up, adopted a son and then went on to have 4 more children of their own! Relax, maybe take time out and don't think about it for a while, perhaps make an appointment with a specialist, but make it for 3 or 4 months time? Give yourself a break, you never know, taking the pressure off could be the best thing to do and if it doesn't, you have that appointment to look forward to :) good luck whatever you decide x
Maybe consider that? Don't give up. A doctor might be able to help!
Have you seen a fertility specialist?