Crying like a baby

[bioclock1]

Well, for those of you who have read my recent posts, you know that i had an unusual AF this month and it only lasted 2 days and was lighter than normal. I've tested 3 times for pregnancy, all three were BFN!! I'm confused b/c if I implanted on 2/16 (when "af" arrived) and it was implantation bleedin I was experiencing, shouldn't I be testing positive by now? I took the 3rd HPT this morning and it wasn't even close to a positve. Very clearly a NEGATIVE. I don't really have a question about this........just writing for support. I've been the BIGGEST crybaby for the past 4 days. i mean, to the point that even I'M wondering "what the hell?" I cried when my hubby and I were at Wal Mart and he when we were joking around he said he didn't love my dog (adorable old beagle). I cried later that night when my husband and i were at home and I started saying that he wasn't attracted to me and never acted like he wanted to be "with" me (ladies..i'm normally NOT that woman... the one who cries and bemoans all the time, this is why it's strange!) I cried the next day b/c he mentioned that cough drops would help my sore throat better than digging to the bottom of the ice cream box, and I cried that night when he asked me if I would be okay when he left the following morning (work trip). The icing on the cake?? I cried when watching re-runs of Saved By The Bell! I'm sitting her asking myself "Are you serious? You're crying b/c Zach's girlfriend left him? WHAT IN THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU???"
When that happened, I took HPT # 3, almost expecting it to be a BFP! Of course it wasn't. I dont' really feel pregnant. No tender bb's. A little gas, a few headaches, slight clear cm but that's it. I'm only 9 days past my LMP so what the hell is going on with me? I'm thinking I'm going to have my hormones tested. Maybe my estrogen or progresterone is off...

anyone else feel like crying over Zach losing his summer girlfriend?

[bioclock1]

Thanks for the support. Lilpixie, what kind of tissue do you use? I'll stock up on it!!
JoyRenee, my face ALWAYS breaks out so I can't see a difference.
My doc sent me home with a hormonal test kit that uses Saliva samples for 11 days throughout my cycle to measure all types of hormones including the 3 levels of estrogen and luteninizing hormone and a bunch of other stuff. So we'll see. For $450 I hope they figure it out. I'm just grateful that someone is finally taking me seriously. Not only do I have hypothyroidism and haven't been able to lose the 50 lbs I gained at all int he last 5 years but something is wrong with my body! And my cycles and hormones are just further providing proof! If I'm not pregnant, and I'M NOT, my body should not be sending me signals that I am. UGH it's so frustrating!!   JoyRenee...keep me posted on what your doc says about your hormones.

[JoyRenee]

AF is in full swing for me and I find myself crying. And I DO. Not. Cry. It's just not who I am. I'm not a sensitive-weepy person. So I think you may have a hormonal imbalance (that's what my doc is checking out for me right now). Is your skin breaking out, too?

[lilpixie]

ohhh you poor thing : ( I hear you on the crying though... I mc in dec and have come to terms with it but I have yet to have a real af and i am just beyond frustrated!!!  I tested 2 days ago and the bfn brought me to over the top tears and dumb stuff that nver bothers me at work has got me going in the bathroom to cry.  so i'll pass the tissue and we can watch saved by the bell and cry for zach together : )  Hope you feel better : )

[bioclock1]

oh yeah, forgot to add that I pee a little bit more frequently but that could be the UTI that I was given antibiotics for. I advise women to stay away from the antibiotic CIPRO...it made everything worse for me and didn't even get rid of the UTI all the way. Oddly enough, I got a head cold, sore throat and intestinal problems from it too!