I just want to scream and cry!!!

[Atia_Julii]

So, my hubby and I have been TTC since February with no luck.  Last night we got together with friends, and our friends told us that they were expecting!!!  She then went on and on and on about how it happened SO fast for them, the first day they tried, and blah, blah, blah.  None of them know my husband and I are trying, because I'm very positive about that.  I had to sit at the table and listen to my friend, and try not to cry.  Don't get me wrong. . . I'm very happy for her and her husband. . . I'm just so sad for me and mine. :-(

I broke down this morning and cried and cried to my Mom, who basically told me I need to start getting healthy physically and mentally, and the rest will fall into place.  I'm going to try really hard to do just that.

Sorry for the rant. . . I just needed to get some stuff off my chest.

[mrsmurphy]

I can completely relate.  My hubby and I are ttc (no one really knows) and have been at it for the past couple of months.  A girlfriend of mine got pregnant after having her IUD out and literally having sex once.  I am really excited for them.....but it is HARD!!! Its so strange as a woman to want to be happy for friends but want to be pregnant too. Something that I think the wonderful men in our lives can't quite understand.

We just started taking vitex (through Fertilaid) and are just trying to have fun with it all.  You are NOT alone and NOT a bad person for feeling this way :)  Our time will come!!

:)

[Atia_Julii]

Thanks for the words of encouragement ladies.  It's so nice to know that there are people going through something similar. . . Although I of course wish none of us had to go through this at all.  It's just so hard!  And I'm very private about TTC. . . As you can see from my profile, I have no pictures of myself up or anything.  It's just hard for me to let people in and know my conception struggles.  I appreciate all of you.  Thanks. :-D

And Anita. . . Best of luck with your pregnancy!  It sounds like you've been through so much. . . My thoughts and prayers are with you also.

[illsurvive]

i exactly can understand ur feeling.Just have faith in got. and to keep busy in other stuff other then baby. i took exact one yr without having any firtility problem. have u checked both u and ur hubby? i assume u did.
i would say just have sex without any tension. try lite music candles and etc etc. do intercourse in classic positon ( when u r under ur husband). Put pillow below ur butt during that time. and stay in same positon at least for 20 minutes. those all things i tried. n one more thing do sex alternate days once u get positive ovulation test.
                         You ll get pregnant before feb i can bet. good luck!

[AnitaRFrith]

  I know how you feel.  I was pregnant with twin with my first pregnancy an I lost both.  3 of my friends got pregnant at the same time.  They had their babies... an I didn't.  I had to smile an act happy when It was killing me to see their babies.  I still think about my babies that died every time I see their kids.
  That was my first pregnancy.  Then I got pregnant again a year later.  2 of my friends were pregnant then too.  ( My friend Margrett an Felishia were pregnant with their 2nd... they were both pregnant the first time I was pregant too.)  3 days after finding out I was pregnant i was rushed to the ER in HORRIBLE pain.  I was pregnant in my tube.  So they rushed me to surgery an removed my left tube.  An again... all my friends had healthy babies.  I was mad at the world.
  It has been almost 3 years since I lost the twins.  I'm not 19 weeks pregnant!  Some one told me about VITEX.  You can get it over the counter.  I took it for 2 weeks an my period started.  ( I didn't have a period of over 10 months.  I had a bad reaction to the depo shot.)  i started to ovulate more.  I had allot more CM during ovulation... I could tell I was ovulation an I never could before.  A few months after first taking it I found out that I was pregnant.  I was in shock.  We had been trying to get pregnant for over a year an nothing ever happened.  I gave up.  
  My point of telling you all of this is that you can't give up hope.  Try VITEX... I know allot of ladies that have gotten pregnant taking it.  You can also take fish oil tabs too.  ( Take the 2 together.)  I'm going to be praying fr you.  If you need to talk you can write me.  God Bless.  Anita

[LauraB78]

I am sorry this has been such a tough journey for you and dh. I keep up with your posts and just wanted to say try and stay positive. We all are here for you.