Lonely and Depressed .

[Aly96]

I get like this at night sometimes .... i tried waking my bf up and i told him how i feel i told him that i feel lonely and depressed and i feel like crying and he yelled at me saying i have no reason to feel that way and hes sleeping so leave him alone . That made me feel even worse . At night i start thinking about all kinds of things like my babys dad . Days can tell weather or not its my bfs or my ex bfs . My bf doesnt care he says he will sign the birth certiciate regardless . Me and him have been together 4 years with that one break up . My ex who may be the father got mad at me after the break up and told me that no matter the outcome to have erick (basically 4 years bf) to sign the birth certificate and that he wants nothing to do with me or baby . My ex is black and Erick is Puerto Rican . And im white , mexican , italian . My mind goes crazy at night . What if my baby wants to meet his dad ? I dont think id like that . What if people at school say hes adopted cuz his parents are white ? Thats gonna make me cry . Just all kinds of things .

[arizaie]

Well that says a lot about him as well. From what you've said your baby has a father and apparently it's your boyfriend Erick not the other *********. If he doesn't care then just let it go. You can't force someone into being in your baby life if they they don't want to, and it's better no to stress on it. I completely understand you because that's how I use to be with my daughter's dad. It hurts to know they don't care for their own kid it's their blood. But hey some guys are like that. To your situation it's a bit better because your baby will grow up with your boyfriend d since day one. Once the baby is here maybe your ex will show interest but it's up to you to decide wet her you let him or not. You have time to think about it and see how things go.

[Aly96]

When i say he didnt find out i mean its not like he found out somehow i honestly just told him what happened and then explained that i couldnt be with him . I worded that wrong the first time .

[Aly96]

Thays very true :) thank you . And the baby will love him no matter what cuz unlike his biological father who did not want him based on anger towards me erick wants him and loves him . :) just gotta keep telling myself that . <3 i always thought that my ex would realize thats still more than likely his baby but hes deleted and blocked me from fb and had all his friends and fam do the same and hasnt even tried to contact me once . Im already 22 weeks and i know the gender . It kills me that hes not even interested . His mom is the only one who didnt block me . I sent her a msg saying that she may very well be the grandmother and i know her son hates me and wants nothing to do with me or baby which i understand (i lied so that she woukd write back) but if you want pics of the ultrasound just say the word and you can have them.  She hasnt responded or read them and its been 3 days :'( his whole family seems to not care . What is wrong with people ? Yeah i messed up i cheated on him with erick . But he didnt find out i was hinest and i told him i couldnt continue to be with him while still in love with erick idk why we even broke up we were just really stressed . I understand his hatred towards me . But then i found out i was pregnant and its probably his why doesnt this man care . The baby did nothing to him he cared for like a month and then boom . Its like he never existed . . .

[arizaie]

S perm donor*

[arizaie]

And remember father is the one that raises the kid as his, not y he d permite donor.  Your baby will know Erick (I believe his name), since birth so for him that will be his dad. I have a 5 y/o daughter I'm not with her dad though, my fiancee and I are expecting my second girl so my daughter is aware and know that he's not her dad, but yet she still sees my fiancee as her dad because he's the one that's there for her unlike her real dad.

[arizaie]

I guess your going to be like that throughout your whole pregnancy until baby is born. Don't get depressed baby feel what you feel. Instead look at the bright side you have someone that's by your side willing to take on responsibility not caring if it's him or not. That says a lot. Hormones are gonna go crazy on you but try no to let em girl.

[Aly96]

What if the baby isnt ericks will he still love erick ? Im soo scared . :'( <|3

[Aly96]

I told him i could put my ex on child support and he said no not to because we dont need s h i t from him and neither does our kid . That made me feel good but right now my mind is just going crazy .