Nervous

[kylialyssah]

I'm 38 weeks + 2 days, I want my baby girl out so bad because I want to hold her & look at her & kiss her little face. I cant wait to to meet her and i already feel so much love for her. At the same time I'm glad she hasn't came yet because I know once she's here everything will change, there will be no time for myself & my man. I question if I will even be a good parent. I feel selfish with those feelings and thoughts but I just can't help thinking about how its going to be. Are these thoughts and feelings normal. I'm 20 & this is my first baby & like I said I have mixed emotions because at the same time I can't wait for her to come and when I think about holding her I cry with happiness. Its all so confusing. Am i terrible person for thinking about how my whole life is going to be different. I feel so bad for thinking like that.

[kylialyssah]

That's some good advice your mom gave you!!. For the past couple years I've been so nurturing towards things. I've had a garden with like a million plants that I grew from seeds & I worked at a wildlife hospital & use to take the baby birds home & raise them from when they had no feathers & eventually released them when they were all grown and ready to fly. I feel like when I really think about it I think I will be a good mom but then I question myself & start going back & forth in my mind. I love all my pets so much & I love my nephews but I think the same thing, like what if I hold her for the first time & don't feel that bond. & then I try to reassure myself & i go back & forth again. Its just frustrating. Im a nanny & I've watched 2 year olds but I know nothing about taking care of a newborn & its just me & my man, we live on our own so I'm just scared we wont know how to take care of her. Just so many thoughts. Idk if its hormones or just they way every woman gets before they have their babies.

[MamitaFly]

I feel the same way and I feel guilty with talking to people about it cause they ain't mothers yet or whatever . I'm 18 FTM also and I told my mom that I'm not ready that I know its coming but what if I suck at being a mom what if I don't feel anything when I see her ... I want her here cause I want to take care of her and love her But damn will I be any good. The advice my mom gave me was pretty helpful she said "no one is ever ready to be a mom but when u see him/her you'll just go with it and learn"

[kylialyssah]

OK at least I'm not the only one. I feel like it will all be different when I finally hold her, at least I'm really hoping I feel different. Idk. I'm going crazy from the anticipation & being in the house everyday is not helping lol. I'm also scared as hell to give birth since I'm planning on doing it all natural. I think I'm just psyching myself out

[vivianne_renee]

No it's totally normal I'm 38 +1 and having the same exact thoughts as you. Nothing to feel bad about! Good luck momma!