I am 16 weeks pregnant with my second child. While I was pregnant with my daughter, I had horrible depression. I was put on suicide watch while in the hospital delivering, because I had written suicide notes and was goingto kill myself after my daughter was born. I was placed on zoloft immediately, and I have remained on a high dosage for the last year. I just went to my first doctors appointment, the midwife told me that I needed to stop the medicine cold turkey. The doctor disagreed when I told him why I was placed on it. My problem is that I have heard about babies being born with birth defects, and I don't want my child hurt, but I also know that it does the baby no good if I kill myself or otherwise harm myself. I also need to consider the care of my one year old daughter. I am with get all day while my husband is at work. Any advice?