breaking point

[megallen]

Uhh i just need to gwt this out as i dobt have many friends since i got pregnant,

So last night my bf of five years decides he wants to go with his friend and hour before i go to work, well that hour is bathtime and bedtime we have a 22month old and a 1 month old so guess wjat he left and i did bath time all alone and put both kids down, after that i sent em a text saying his priorities are realy sucky.

well he never came home last night or answerwd the phone needless to say i didbt make it into work,
Ive been so stressed out since i came home home from the hospital i went back to work the night i came home i didnt get maternity leave i was a wreck because i didnt wana leave t
my daughter so soon and im exclusevely bf so that puts akot of pressure on me to make sure i jave enough pumped, i work 7days a week morning and night and im the only one providing for my housewhich is absolutely the worst and puts so much pressure on me.

About a week ago my daughter started just getting fussy and isnt happy unless shes nursing, which is all the rime and its so hard because my son needs attention too and is great with the baby but hes trying to be the baby again, needless to say im very sleep deprived my house is a wreck as is my relationship, every time people leave and its just me and the kids i just cry i cant help myself im so in over head, which isnt like me i had an extremely rough pregnancy with my first i lost my grandma who raised me not even a month before i delivered and still held myself more together then this :( im at my wits end and just dont know what to do, i feel like this is my first baby my son never cried or got sick it made it seem easy now my daugjter on the other hand is just showing me a whole new side of parenting which i love but its just stressful with avtoddler and a newborn and a bf who is just confusing the hell out of me....uhhhh so its so long i just had to clear my head

[febmama2013]

To be honest you don't need someone like that. If I had work and he knew he needed to be here to look after the kids especially if that's all he does and he took off to see his mates I would end it there. You are making money so all of you can live but he is takeing major advantage over you. I would do it alone. I think you would be so much happier then having him there literary being unreliable and being a child.

[marimarumommy86870507100]

You should go back home no matter what she says at least you will be safe and all you have to do is work and take care of your kids and maybe God will send you a real man and not a boy. I feel bad for you, but believe that God won't put no more on us than we can bare it's a test. But, I believe your boyfriend was out doing another girl that he has been talking too and just couldn't tell you. Good Luck!

[megallen]

Ok so ive reached it... my bf left yesterday he says.he needs time away to clear his head and get his life right and stop depending on me he wants to find a job, ok i get that but y did he have to leave y after five years did e go to his friend to talk instead of me why didnt he want this before the new baby came or shoot even our first....

Ever since i had my daughter the 9th ive cried everyday sometimes i dont eeven know why, i feel so confused and unhappy which makes me feel terrible i should be so happy now that my baby is here but i dont, i dont want to be in this house anymore it makes me miss my bf more iys just sp big and i feel so alone i thought about asking my aunt and grandfather if i could move back home but it will be so crowded and i always dont get along with my aunt, to top it all off someone tried to break in my house last night, im absolutely exhausted and im just at my witts end i feel like i have no feeling anymore except wanting to cry ALL the time. i feel like i need to tell my aunt(shes basically taken the mother role over me) whats been going on ifeeli just dont know how to bring it up to her or what to say she usually yells about everything which makes it worse i just want her to understand.

[AnnieBrooke]

Is he the primary child-care person when you are at work?  If so, that is not a small thing, it's a huge contribution to the family.  If not, what exactly IS he doing to contribute to the family?

[elizabethhhkitty]

I know you probably love him alot but you shoul draw a line and say until you want to help with your family you can leave

[megallen]

I try an try he just doesnt get it. ugh im trying to be positive but its hard.

[elizabethhhkitty]

Im so sorry girl your so strong have a seriou talk with him because thats totally unfair what hes doing to you. You didnt get pregnant by yourself he has responsibilities too.

[Optimysticmama]

Omg hun, thats a lot to deal with. Hopefully it gets better for u & fast.