ppd. vent.

[xbeccaxnicolex]

I had my sweet little boy on Sunday but I fear I have ppd. Everything just seems so hard. Everytime I breastfeed I cry because I feel like I can't do it. I feel like my husband has been home less since the baby was born than before. I have to do everything alone it seems I haven't even been able to take but one shower since I got home because if I'm not feeding my son then I'm trying to catch up on sleep. The laundry needs to be done. The house is a mess and I have no appetite or motivation. On top of it all I had to have an unwanted c-section so doing just about anything hurts. I haven't even been able to give my son his first "bath" because I'm too scared to do it alone. I've cried so much since I've been home. I just don't know if I can do this

[xbeccaxnicolex]

Thank you. I don't have family around me either other than my dad and younger brother and we aren't close to his family. I'm just hoping it gets better because I know my lil man needs me

[xbeccaxnicolex]

I haven't quite gotten the hang of pumping yet. The only time I tried I only got almost an ounce after pumping twice. And as for my husband, he's been going up to a shop my dad is working at helping him. He isn't making any money from it yet so it just frustrates me more. The only gold thing is if I need any help with a bad diaper (the baby hates diaper changes and putting vasoline on his circumcision freaks me out) then he can come home a few min bc he is less than 5 min away. But that's pretty much the only help I can get. And I know it's not that he doesn't love his son. He does but I feel like he's avoiding responsibility

[joannagonzalez]

Your not alone my son is a week.&5days and my hubby has left to work for 3 weeks right when we were discharged at the hospital. I have no family around me because I moved to a different state an I'm pretty much on my own here. Ive been breastfeeding and the first few days I felt like crap !! Ill cry because I felt like I couldn't do this alone but tough it out mom I felt like its gotten better I still struggle a little but we can do this. Don't let it get you to another level just adjusted to it because your baby is going to need you. Dont feel scared :) everything is going to be okay

[xbeccaxnicolex]

I really don't want to give up on breast feeding even though it is so hard. I reaaly wanna stick it out but my son is like you lil one was -never satisfied. And when he does sleep for longer times I feel bad if I don't wake him every two hours to eat.
Its nice to know some else understands. I feel so alone in all of this

[mommabear27]

Aw hun :(   Poor you.   You need to try and take things easy after your C-Section, I'm 16 days passed my emergency section and I still hurt, and still need help doing things.   Your hubby really needs to start taking responsibility and helping you out, you've had major surgery and you will take about 6 weeks or so to heal properly - even climbing the stairs will tire you at first, and there;s so much you shouldn't be doing ie hoovering etc.   And you need some sleep - where does your hubby go if he home less now that baby is here?   he should help you with the feeding, even if you express some milk to bottle feed your baby if you don't want to supplement him with formaula - my son gets breastfed from 6am - 11pm then has a bottle of expressed milk about 3am so that BD can help with the night feeds etc to give me a break.      I cried at first when trying to breastfeed my son because if I couldn't get him to latch on the first couple tries when he was hungry, he would get so frustrated and start screaming and would get himself so worked up that he couldn't latch on, I cried because I felt useless and if I couldn't even feed my own son then what kind of mother was I?     Thankfully those feelings passed after a few days but I still feel hormonal now and cry and get worked up over little things.      I hope these baby blues pass quickly for you, feel free to message me if you want to chat / vent xx

[sandy_baby3oct6]

I had a very hard time breastfeeding my first baby too i was just like you she was NEVER satisfied i cried all the time cuz i felt like she just wasn't getting enough milk from me after a very long sleepless night i have her a bottle of formula and oh my goodness that little girl slept for almost 5 hours straight! I felt terrible bcuz i stopped breastfeeding her after that but everyone has told me that doing it for the ten days that i did was way better than not doing it at all. Your probably feelingso down and out bcuz your sleep deprived i know how you feel about doing it on your own too with her (my first) i didn't move in with her dad until she was a little over a month old so i had no help either and it's really hard I'm sure even worse having gone through a c-section as well you really need some sleep hon! Have you thought about supplementing your breast milk with formula? Kinda switching between the two? He might sleep a little longer at each nap which means a little more sleep for you too :) hang in there it will get better and i do agree that if your not feeling better soon talk to your doctor but know that if you decide to get put on an anti-depressant you will probably have to stop breastfeeding :( good luck i really hope things get better and quick too cuz i know exactly what your going through and it's no fun at all :(

[xbeccaxnicolex]

I've tried talking to him and he apologizes but then doesn't do anything to help or change it. Which is even more frustrating. I don't have anyone around to help and its getting to me. I plan on talking to my doctor at my 2week check up

[sml143]

Everything is still new and you're getting use to it..I do suggest sitting your husband down and telling him you need some help with housework and baby so you can at least shower..it'll be okay you're just adjusting as a new mom but if you're not feeling better in a couple weeks talk with your doctor hun