I feel like im the only one!

[Roz1977]

Hey girls! why do i feel like im the only person on here who has had post partum depression and anxiety? everyone seems so happy and content when they have there babies and i feel over whelmed and guilt. i will not get into my story as i do not want to scare all the pregnant woman who never had this. i have struggled over the past few months tremendously and im just hoping that there is someone on here that would understand what i am going through. My baby is currently 3 months and i am on medication for this i am getting better slowly, when i was at my worst i couldnt have wrote this post. If someone can answer this post or private message me id appreciate it greatly.
happy easter to all of u!

[Atlantisea]

I had bad postnatal depression after my first child. I've now had my third (11 weeks ago) and luckily for me did not get it with the next two. I'll never forget how tough that first year was with my firstborn though, and each time I worried that it might happen again. If you need someone to talk to PM me. I'm busy (SAHM of three) but will make sure I get back to you as soon as I can.

[heatherlynn22]

i still get overwhelmed and anxiety and my twins are 8 months old. don't worry you're not alone.

[leighanne143]

roz- im with you.  i had jaedyn 8 weeks ago and i often find myself crying over nothing and feeling so guilty all the time for nothing.  sometimes i feel like a bad mom, other times i feel bad for getting pregnant when me and my fiance are not getting along (but i would not change having him) and other times i just feel like nothing is right.  i have not tried any meds yet but i just might meet with my doctor about it, so your not alone.  if you need to talk, feel free to PM me.

[sweetangel7]

You are so not alone!  I haven't delivered yet so I can't say I understand BUT I have read posts on here about ppd.  There was one woman, I WISH I could remember her screen name but I can't for the life of me and she was actually hospitalized for it.  She was very open about it too!  Maybe someone else will remember who it was so you can pm her and maybe talk about things.

HUGS!

[GRose]

I think the person sweetangel was referring to was BTS, she hasn't been on much lately and I cant remember her full sn.
I too delt with PPD after I had Noah but I never talked to anyone about it, I wish I would have because I feel like it has carried on into actual depression and now I am too embarrassed to talk about it.

[Michele, Katy, TX]

I have had 5 kids so far, and I get it EVERYTIME I have a baby.  I DO know how you feel and I know that when you are going through it, it is terrible!!!

I can remember making statements like, "I just don't feel like myself.  I feel so fragile and I am normally not fragile".  I remember feeling like I was in this glass bottle.  It was like I could see and hear everyone and I was reaching, but no one could reach me.  It is very hard to explain but I totally felt like no one understood.

I also get on medication.  I mean I go straight from the hospital to the pharmacy, or rather my husband does.

The good news is, you have stated that you are slowly getting better and that is wonderful.  I always try to remember that it is temporary and that it WILL pass, but it does take time.  If the meds alone don't help you, or help you enough, you may also want to consider speaking w/ a counselor.

I will keep you in my prayers and I am so sorry you are going through this.  I know how awful it is.  I am pregnant again, and am dreading going through this again :(

[mami1323]

I think I had it but not that extreme.  I felt lonely all the time, I was crying when I would feed Jayden all by myself every 2 hours.  I was exhausted and overwhelmed and he would cry non-stop in the evenings and I could feel myself wanting to escape.  Didn't mean I didn't love him but I thought to myself, how could I do this?  Maybe I wasn't ready for a baby?  Maybe I should've never had a child?  But it does go away, even now when Jayden is almost 17 months, I get really frustrated and overwhelmed.  It is hard, motherhood is the hardest thing anyone could do.  But it's so rewarding.  You will be ok, at least you saw the signs and have now begun to get the little bit of extra help you need.  This too shall pass.  Good luck.

[Roz1977]

Thank you girls i appreciate all the support it makes me feel better to know that i am not alone. who ever suffered from ppd and is preg again i wish you all the best of luck!

i have not seen BTS on here for a while i hope she is ok.

michele katy - i know what u mean about being in a glass bottle i felt like someone had a garbage bag over my head and i was suffocating.
thankfully i am getting better but sometimes i take a step back.
i also have been going to therapy once a week. i give you a lot of credit for getting preg again and again and again! im truly too scared at this point to go through it again and that makes me feel even guiltier. i wish u luck!

[tiredbuthappy]

It doesn't get much traffic, but there is a forum for it!
http://www.medhelp.org/forums/Postpartum-Depression-PPD/show/309

Just reading some other people's threads may help you feel less alone.

[Michele, Katy, TX]

Thanks Roz for your nice comments.  Don't worry or think about having another baby right now.  That is just too overwhelming at this time.  In time, you will be able to enjoy the little one you have, more and more, as you start feeling better and better.  And there are some people that have PPD after one baby, but not after the next.  You never know.  You might be one of those lucky ones.  Unfortunately, I'm not one of them, but knowing what to expect helps me, on some level, deal w/ it the next time......It helps me, at least, to be prepared for it.  And my husband is now a pro, but the first time, he just did not know what to do.  He was really confused by the whole thing.  And how the heck do you explain it to a man anyway??  **Kind of laughing**

Please know that you can PM me anytime.  Who knows?  I may be PMing you after I have this baby!  I will need all the support I can get, but like you said, it will take a while before I can even bring myself to get on here to post for support :(

Take care girl!