I lost my baby last night. It was the most terrible feeling I had :( So, I thought I would write a poem to share my feelings especially for those lost their babies, too.
Little Arianna
Oh my little Arianna
When we found out about you,
We could not wait to share our lives with you.
Your big brother felt so much joy,
That he never cared if you were a girl or boy.
All he wanted was a sibling for him to share his love,
and his prayers were answered from above.
Your father was surprised,
He couldn’t even believe his own eyes,
We were all so excited for you to be part of us,
but suddenly we found out that you wouldnt last.
All we felt was sorrow,
knowing you won't be here tomorrow.
When you were about to leave us,
All your big brother did was ask.
Why did you have to go?
Was there something he can do?
He Prayed and prayed,
And I told him that he needed to be braved.
Then, it was time for us to say our goodbyes,
I couldnt hear anything but just our cries.
Even though you’re gone you are always in our hearts forever, our beloved arianna.
all the best in the future - may you not know any more heart ache.
Someone told me something that helped me when I was going through this - that the baby was most likely not well and would suffer very much if you had carried to term. It is better for us to grieve and suffer than the poor little baby to suffer so much. It helped me to think my suffering had purpose or meaning better me than my baby, that is not suffering anymore...
Allow yourself to be sad
I'm so sorry for your loss. I know exactly how you feel. How far along were you? I was 23.5 weeks when I gave birth to my son. We named him too. I couldn't bear not to give him his name. They deserve that. I hope you will feel better soon, even though I know this is a long hard road to travel. Bless our little angel babies!
this is the poem that my mother in law recited at my baby girl funeral. This was passed out at her funeral. I'm sorry for your loss... if you need to talk just write me, Anita.
- Dec. 12, 2005
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A BABY"S SECRET
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I'm just a little person;
And I didn't quite make it there;
I went straight to be with Jesus
And I'm waiting for you here.
Don't you fret about me, Mommy,
I'm of all God's lambs most blest;
I'd have loved to stayed
there with you,
But our shepherd know's
whats best.
Many dwelling here where I live
Waited year to enter in;
Struggled through a world of sorrow
And their lives were marred with sin.
So sweet Mommy don't you sorrow,
Chase the gloom and wipe the tears;
I went straight to Jesus's bosom
May your heartache disappear.
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After we put her to rest I was heart broken
. I used to read this and cry my eyes out. Keep your chin up... they are at peace. It took me 6 months of anti depressants to come to that conclusion. I'm praying for you and I'm very sorry for your loss. God Bless. Anita Rachelle DeVall