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I'm only writing this because I am so embarrassed and ashamed about what I'm about to write and I need advice and help. Please please don't judge me or write terrible things I already am feeling the worst I've ever felt in my life. I am 13 weeks and addicted to oxycodone. I am trying to get into the methadone clinic asap. I feel so alone and helpless. I have a child growing inside of me that I feel like I'm killing. I just need some advice and maybe encouraging words to help me through. Should I go to the ER and have them help me? Has anyone ever been in my position? Please don't tell me how much of a bad mother I am or anything judgemental. I already know and feel it. I'm just reaching out for help please..
I had an addiction before I got pregnant.. I felt like my body was to unhealthy to even get pregnant but it happened.. I feel like it's happened for a reason.. And when I look back on it, I feel like I would not have been able to shape up with out this blessing.. Don't wish the baby away to continue your addiction.. Use ur blessing as God trying to guide you and take you on an entirely new path.. If your feeling like it's time to get some help, that's because it is time.. Hope all goes well
You can do it! Every time you feel discouraged, think of all your supporters on here chanting YOU CAN DO IT! Be brave mama and you should be so proud of yourself for seeking help. Few addicts do that. I should know. I was addicted to cigarettes before I was pregnant. I can only imagine what you're going through. Good thoughts and vibes sent your way! ♡♡♡
I'VE BEEN IN YOUR SHOES GIRL! before I became pregnant I was addicted to pain killers, which led to heroin. first let me say it's nothing to be ashamed of as it is a disease, at least what I've come to realize and it's not something u have chosen to become I'm sure. because living in addiction daily is hell I know, and as much as u hate it, hate urself, hate everything u do and have become, u can't seem to put it down. please do not beat urself up anymore bc for me the guilt was the strongest of all emotions and it's what kept me from healing. there's so much I want to say too u, but this is only a comment so if u want feel free too message me. the only thing that has saved me is going to a suboxone clinic. I've been on suboxone for about 9 months, but I was relapsing until I found out I was pregnant. so the suboxone clinic switched me to subutex and cracked.down.on me giving me one last chance to remain clean or kick me out, I knew if they kicked me out I'd go without the suboxone, withdraw, which could cause miscarriage. so I switched to subutex(which worked alot better for me) and I go to the clinic twice a week to do a drug test and receive my script. I've been clean for almost 4 months, from everything including weed. now of course I'm on my medicine, but I have to remain on this by doctors orders to avoid withdraw which can cause baby have seizures in uterus and miscarry. SO MOST IMPORTANTLY, do not go cold turkey, & please find a local methadone or suboxone clinic ASAP bc I know with my addiction there are days u can't get the drug which will cause detox. please don't be ashamed abd be honest with ur doctor. in my opinion suboxone is much better to be on while pregnant because it's a studied fact that there is less chance of withdraw (NAS) at birth, as methadone has way more severe withdraw & side effects especially for new borns. please sweetie, right now especially whIle pregnant this is ur only option, as going off all opiates completely can cause severe effects, or loss of baby. u need something to maintain ur symptoms and keepu well as baby is already used to opiates, u need opiate antagonists to help u get off. suboxone is also an opiate blocker, helps cravings and all around makes u feel "normal" functional. where do u live? I may be able to help u find a clinic as I have a booklet across the country clinics. I feel for u so deeply my sister, this will be the biggest and hardest fight of ur life, and will always be with u, at least in my experience. but I've seen suboxone truly save people's lives worst of the worst addicts, as I was.. I still cannot believe how far I've come, and this baby is absolutely a second chance at life for me, you are so blessed honey, do what u got yo do w.e it takes, please. I hope this helped in some way, please msg me if I can help in any way or just to talk. hang in there and God bless and strengthen u and your little Angel, my heart goes out too u.
I knew someone that was hooked on percocets and those type of pills are so addicting. I'm glad your looking to get help and thinking about your child. You can do it!!!
Let me just say that the fact that you are admitting it and reaching out for help is proof that you are in fact the complete opposite of a bad mother...Your trying and as a former addict myself I know how difficult quitting is especially when you have the extra pressure of needing to stop not only for yourself but more so for your baby and the fear of harming your unborn baby and running the risk of losing him/her when he/she is born makes it that much harder...I am currently on Suboxone and I was also on it with my last pregnancy and he was/is perfectly healthy so maybe you could consider that route...Dont be to hard on yourself. Your trying and thats better then nothing. Just be strong keep your head up and never quit fighting. I hope that you get the help that you and your little one need...Congratulations btw :)
I'd say smoke weed instead it helped me when i was slamming, but i wasnt pregnant, either way i wanted out fast i was sick n tired...u know the feeling i know its addicting but just control ur mind try ur hardest, think about the baby i know its so easy to give in but once u say no day by day it becomes easier...I've been clean about 8 months and couldn't be any happier. .u can do it stop that shitt it will eventually kill u softly. Im gunna keep u in my prayers. Good luck
You are so brave for posting ur addiction and taking the first step. You are obviously a very strong woman and i have no doubt u can overcome this addiction. Stay strong and remember we are all here to talk to 24/7 if u need to chat.
You are very brave for posting!
since they are opiates, they physically addictive and require a lot of care to quit. I think you could start with the ER or your doctor. Hospitals typically have a social worker assigned to them. Social Workers can get you hooked up with the county services to find a treatment program. Since you are pregnant it should get you bumped up the wait list for a bed in a program. Private treatment centers are expensive, and not all insurance covers it - county treatment programs tend to have high demand.
I wish you the best of luck
since they are opiates, they physically addictive and require a lot of care to quit. I think you could start with the ER or your doctor. Hospitals typically have a social worker assigned to them. Social Workers can get you hooked up with the county services to find a treatment program. Since you are pregnant it should get you bumped up the wait list for a bed in a program. Private treatment centers are expensive, and not all insurance covers it - county treatment programs tend to have high demand.
I wish you the best of luck
Don't feel embarrassed ppl smoke weed, cigarettes, do all kind of things while they a pregnant first off don't go to the ER they not going to help you you have to take a stand all your own makes a plan to stop cut down find something else when you have a craving grab a large cup of water and down it keep your mind occupied stay strong live your life for you and that baby your doctor's not going to prescribe it to you don't buy it from no one mind over matter
Do what ever it take to stop, go to the er and tell them exactly what u said above! They will see u want help and they will help u!! Good luck my friend I hope you and baby get through this safely!!! ♡♥
Wow well i.can.say your stromg for.admitting it and asking for help. no one can make you feel bad.for.that. have you talked to.your doctors about.it? I've had a.problem w oxys at.one point in my life and id do anything for it i even woukd get.methadone (my ex was ex army and he had a wicked back.injury) he got me addicted. i wasn't pregnant but i do know the withdrawals will be the worst part for you and baby. the only way.i quit was dping the loser and dirtbag.friends i had in my.life. i smoked tons.of.pot go help my withdrawals and then stopped.that. but i.don't recommend doing.that especially pregnant. I'm sure your doctors coukd recommend something or somewhere for you but if you decide to stop all together def. go to er and I'm sure they'd.want to.put.you on lots of fluids bc you'll feel sick and probally get.super sick. but keep in mind the withdrawals will ssaalways.pass. if you focus.on the baby I'm sure.you can do it.especially when you.obviously want.to stop or you wouldn't ask abuncg.of judgmental people for.help. id def. call your doctors and explain to them what's going on they will know best for the.health of you and your baby. its.not easy.but.i.know.it can be.done. and.pregnant you have.more of a reason too. :-) i wish you the.best.of.luck momma. and your not a bad mom bc you are reaching out for help. xo!!!
God oxycodone I can't spell
Oxycoton
Thank you I take oxymoron 30mg sometimes 10 a day. I have been trying so hard to slow down its killing me. They said methadone is the best route to go when your pregnant?
Get help, u can do it, do it for your child, im glad that you are wanting to get help. Talk to your doctor and let them know and they can give you numbers to help center's. I pray for u and your child keep the faith and don't get discouraged :)
Sweetie seek help call 411and explain it to them I promise they should link you where to start. Stay positive love
I meant I don't think u will b allowed to quit COLD turkey lol
Oh jeez. I cant understand how someone could actually call u a bad mother. That stuff is extremely addictive I would know I've been down that road. N yes here trying to stop. Have u started cutting down on Wat u take? No matter Wat this will b very unpleasant so if u haven't done that yet u need to. U also need to talk to a doctor. Cuz I don't think u will b allowed to quit child turkey cuz ur baby is hooked too. Start slowing down on it n call ur doctor. Ur going to need to let them know ur wanting to quit n uve been struggling n this was going on b4 ur pregnancy. Idk how u r with addiction. I've been able to quit with no help but it was miserable n I relapsed twice so id say b sure n get help
Get help, u can do it, do it for your child
The fact that you are reaching out for help is a positive step on the right direction and shows that you care about your child. Addiction is not easy and anyone who tells you differently has never had it impact their life. I'm not sure what the best action is, but hang in there and just keep making positive moves for you and your child. :-)
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