blast from the past

[waitn838]

now that i am in the 2nd trimester i cannot help but remember losing a baby shortly after entering the 2nd trimester back in 2008...that loss took a toll on me more then i can describe...its been bothering me because i couldnt remember exactly how far along i was when i lost that one...so i did some reseach and went through all my posts back to March 2008 to get an idea of how far along i was....i was 15 weeks 1 day when i lost the baby...i thought i was further along but i guess i wasnt

in any event....im 14 weeks tomorrow....the next week is going to be extremely tough on me....i cant tell yet if it was a good thing to look back before the loss and then after...the pain seems so real again....

i just needed to ramble....luckily i have plenty of schoolwork to keep me busy and hopefully get me past that mark...i have waited 2 years to get past that point and im still hopeful that this baby is going to make it

[SoCalTricia]

I can imagine how hard that is...how painful to look back. I know what you mean...it's not the same - opposite actually - but I look back at journal entries and pregnancy tracker from my pregnancy with Ian. How happy I was, how hopeful I was. It's pretty painful - so I can imagine your pain is similar. If I ever DO get pregnant again, I'm sure I'll go through some of what you're feeling. Anyway...I'm so sorry you're feeling anxious and nervous. You'll be in my thoughts through the next weeks, until you get over that "hump", which I'm sure you will!

Tricia

[Kricket212]

I keep a personal notebook on everything the Dr tells me so this way I can look back.  Also, My child can see one day what I am going thru to get him/her.

I am so excited for you & think you will be fine.

[waitn838]

thanks everybody....next doc appt is 4/12...feels like forever away

[AdrienneLIQ]

I'll be thinking and praying for you....but as others have said....every pregnancy is different....and the likelihood of this happening to you again has to be small.....so keep the faith and before you know it....poof....baby will be in your arms.  Good Luck to you and keep us up to date!

[rdh1981]

I know it is hard to not be nervous, but just remember every pregnancy is different! Try to enjoy this happy time because you will be 40wks before you know it!

[udbe2]

you will be fine.  Plus they did find out that you have the blood clotting disorder and have you taking the shots.   I know it is hard not to worry and think back on the past but I have a really good feeling that everything is going to be alright.