not again

[36andscared]

Today, at 7 weeks 4 days, I started cramping and then spotting and now clots. I've been crying most of the day. I can't keep going through this. The pain, both the physical and emotional, is too much to bear. And to top it off, I can't get out of work. No rest or mourning. I'm loosing my baby and I still have to go be the perfect employee. I hate this life. I hate myself for not being able to carry my children. I feel like such a failure as a woman. Such a failure.

[michelle81781]

Im so sorry for your losses. It is so hard to carry a baby and then not get to deliver in the end. I had lost my first baby at 21 weeks and I still morn him now allmost 11yrs later. My heart goes out to you. Please dont blame yourself, give yourself time to heal and talk to your dr then try again. It will happen for you.

[stacey10]

I'm so sorry for your losses, you need to get some tests done through an re if you havent already, you could have clotting issues or immune issues etc, most of these are just simple blood tests, hopefully you can find the cause of your miscarriages and will go on to have a healthy pregnancy and baby, good luck xx

[missi_m]

No words, gutted for you, biggest hugs x x x

[36andscared]

This was my eighth. Yesterday at work I passed the fetal tissue. I'm more in shock right now than anything. I've cried more in the last two days than I thought possible. Now, I almost feel numb. Emotionally I'm shuting down. Not because I want to but I think my heart and brain just need to not feel to heal....at least for now.

[godisgoodallthetime]

I am soooo sorry sweetie ... my heart goes out to you.... I will keep you in my prayers.... keep your faith in God.... for only he can keep you n give you strength.... I know its hard to see now but he has plan for you.... God bless you...

[cutter1974]

I am so sorry for your heartbreak! It is not an easy thing out are going thru.
I had two miscarriages in a row within 5 months, it is very hard to go thru. But if it is in your heart, keep trying. For me the third pregnancy was the charm. I am currently 36 weeks. Hang in there.
Have you had any tests done to see why this might be happening? After my last miscarriage we did tests, but it was inconclusive, everything looked normal. They figured it was just bad eggs. So, for a few months I took some supplements to try and increase egg quality. I also went to a RE and he decided to put me on baby aspirin. And, I am not sure if it was the supplements, or aspirin, or just a good egg finally, but here I am.
Hang in there.

[angelab2012]

I've also been thru miscarriages.  I'm so sorry I know how hard mentally and physically it is..  I was thinking talk to ur dr or a specialist before conceiving again I've uve definitely lost this little one and ask what they can do to help maybe a certain vitamin,  ur lacking or medicine like hormone ur needing boosted to continue the pregnancies. Again sweety important very sorry. I know how tough it us. But YOUR NOT alone.  One in four end in miscarriage.  Most woman have had at least one.  We're all here to talk.  And talk to ur dr Good Luck....

[MissTrevia]

I'm so sorry. My heart aches for you.

[cher01]

I share your pain with you. It hurts so much! The moment we concieve we love our kids so much we wld do anything to protect them and you have been an amazing mother to your little angel,  even if it has been for a short time. And this i gleaned through your many posts. There are never answers to your question but anguish. Don't beat yourself up. Bad things happen to good pple, who font deserve it. Its the conundrum of life we are yet to unravel.

[RockRose]

It's not clear how many miscarriages you've been through,  but I'm so sorry for all your losses.

Have you had lab work done on why you lose these babies?  Sometimes it can be as simple as low progesterone.

Prayers for a successful pregnancy and healthy baby in the future.  This is so hard.  

[cangel1019]

you are not a failure... many of us have unfortunally lost a preg or many,,, there are so many reasons why women have miscarriages  including myself.. i tried for many many years to try to get preg and i am 40 yrs old and in oct of last year i finally got a + then like you going through all the negative stuff that comes with the wrong and not fair  ect... and then it was confirmed nov 5th i lost my preg and it is still hard to deal with.. you need to go through the greiving process... but dont feel like you are a failure, you have done nothing wrong and in my heart i belive it will happen for you and myself and others who are having ttc.. we need to believe that it will have and not get stressed out (an i know it is hard to do).. but blaming yourself is not an option. to have a healthy baby is to keep yourself healthy.. for my experience i went threw all the emotions and cried for months but today i find myself more stronger to keep going forward to keep trying until it happends and i hope you find it within yourself to do the same in time... my heart goes out to you and so so sorry for what you are going through...  

[huetson32]

Awww sweetie plz don't beat yourself up,  all thinngs happen for a reason.  I lost 2 within 8 months.  I know the despair and heartache your going through. I pray you will heal emotionally and physically.