Am I crazy or am I normal?

[conshe]

I am at 19 dpo. i've had many symptoms of pregnancy off and on. If I am this would be my 2nd. It's been 10 years so I don't remember what being pregnant feels like anymore. I know I just feel...."different". I guess Im in denial in a way that I could be pregnant...because it has taken 10 yrs. After I had my 1st it was difficult because I was not having a period, and I don't want to disappoint myself thinking I am. Last year I found out I have PCOS. Before and after I knew about this my periods were regular, 29 day cycle. I recently had unprotected sex on Dec 19, that was either the day before or on ovulation. Now I am late. For some reason I am finding different reasons on why I'm NOT pregnant. Like the PCOS has ceased my AF, I guess by coincidence around the time I could have concieved. I blame me going to bed at 9pm every night now (rather than 12-1am like I used to) on boredom. I blamed my AF not coming because having sex has changed my cycle. Believe me I have an excuse for everything, even me being very hungry at 2am...I told myself I didn't eat enough during the day. The tingles in my BBs, I ignore. The nausea after everytime I eat...I blame on the food. I am scared to test. Is there anyone who has felt this way?  I am scared. :(

[conshe]

Thank you!! And you're right. I should just get it over with and stop making excuses for everything.

[Krista519]

Your not crazy, there has been times i have been very late and i thought i was prego,and i would use excuses, it was change in my diet,stress ect. I don't know anything about PCOS but everyone has their excuses. Just take a test you will feel so much relief when you know more. I found out i was pregnant the day i was suppost to start my period.
I wish you luck!!