Baby not growing after 8 week, and no heart beat

[VLUGO9696]

Hi Everyone. This is my first pregnancy, and when I found out in December I was pregnant I made an appt with the doctor to see how everything was going with my baby. When I went in I thought that I was 8 weeks, since they went by my last monthly cycle, but when the doctor did the ultra sound I was only 5 weeks. Then I went in the next week because I was sick with the flu, and they did another ultra sound to make sure everything was alright, and I was 6 weeks. But when I went in this Monday for my regular check up my doctor said that the baby had stopped growing, that there was something wrong with the baby, and that the baby hadn't developed right. There was also no heartbeart. He also said that I would have to have a procedure done to remove to baby. I don't know exactly what he said because I was just in a state of shock. But, he said for me not to rush into anything, and to wait a week to make sure about this. I just don't know what to think anymore. The baby was fine two weeks ago, and now something is wrong I just don't understand. Do you think that maybe the doctor just saw wrong with the ultra sound? Because when I had the ultra sound done I couldn't even see the baby in the sack like before all I saw was something really small in the lower corner, and I couldn't see much. I just don't know what to think. It has been so hard on my husband and I because this is our first pregnancy, and we had been trying for 3 years, and finally we got pregnant. I don't know what to do or think. It is just very hard right now for my husband and I. Do you have any advice? Thanks.

[uvkaren]

yes, I agree. I had a D&C after our first pregnancy turned out the baby died at 14 weeks, and I didn't know until a check up at 18 weeks. Sometimes our body doesn't want to let go. Three months after I had the D&C, we conceived my little girl, who's now 4. Then I had another miscarriage and D&C, was pregnant again within 4 months, then another miscarriage with a natural passing. I didn't conceive again until 14 months later. I felt the D&C helped my body get back on track cycle wise.  

Now I have my 6th pregnancy, they didn't find a heart beat at 9 weeks, or a body, but now at 10 weeks, they've found a faint heart beat and the baby measures 4.5 weeks... we're waiting it out. Most likely the baby won't come to term, but I feel grateful to have a heartbeat and seen the baby on an ultrasound. God bless, it's all in His hands! -Karen

[adecel]

pls can someone help me out of my problem right now my wife is 13weeks pregnant about two days ago she notice that she is having some spot of blood after she wake up so we went to doctor and the doc said the baby has stop growing and there is no heartbeat that we should wait foe ten days am just sad and am so worried right now because this pregnant is my hope can you guys pls advise me or tell me what gonna happen

[LirMoon]

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[Beckymaddox]

I went for my 12 week scan today and the baby had stopped developing at 9 weeks and has no heart beat. I have opted for the D&C which will be on Tuesday. I'm terrified and just want some advice. We have been trying for 2 and a half years and this was our first pregnancy.

[creesto]

Hi everyone, im not sure what to say, my wife and i just found out today after 9 weeks that we have to remove our baby, this is our second miscarriage, from a husband's point of view, there are no words to describe how i feel, but the only thing i could say to my wife is, not too loose faith in GOD,  GOD has his reasons why he allows these type of things to happen to good people, honest people, i know its not fair when there are woman that fall pregnant that does not even want there baby's, and end up having the healthiest baby's. As a husband, i choose to believe that god has a greater plan, dont get me wrong, im grieving too, but i believe GOD will come through for me and my wife, and i believe he will come through for you too, dont give the devil a chance to weaken your faith, notice i capitalised GOD, reason, while you remain faithfull, and believe in his greatness, he will bless you, but not when it suits you, when he feels the time is right. I know it's only human to feel this way, but i beg you, dont lose faith in GOD. MAY GOD BLESS EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU.

[Tinne123]

I just found out today that my baby never developed. I don't even know when and why it stopped developing. I am supposed to be on my 10th week. I felt devastated when my doctor gave me the news. I asked for a second ultrasound just to confirm that there's really no baby anymore because I just feel like he's just there. But it didn't take me a while to realize that everything happens for a reason. I know God knows what's best for me. And what gives me peace is the fact that I know he/she is always going to be m y little angel.
I haven't had 2 miscarriages  but I totally feel you, especially being a first time mother. But try not to worry about it and just try to be positive that the 3rd pregnancy will be successful. I will keep you in my prayers.  

[Tiff56]

hi everyone i have had two miscarriages both occurring in the same way except i never get to hear a heart beat i just get told the baby stops growing at 6 weeks but i dont have the miscarriage until im 11 weeks well i believe im pregnant again this would be my 3rd time this year my doctors will not tell me if anything is wrong with me until i lose a third one its very stressful but i just feel like a 3rd miscarriage is gonna happen again and so i dont even wanna really care until i actually hear a heart beat or see a growing baby my husband wont talk to me about this because with the army he is never home to talk to me except evenings when hes really tired and doesnt wanna do anything but sleep if i am pregnant and lose again im going to be devastated has anyone else lost 2 but then had one after the 3rd try being a first time mother?????

[merld]

Hello,
I am 9 weeks pregnant and diabetic. I went in to see the perinatologist today and found out that my baby stopped developing after 8 weeks. It was the most devastating news especially after finally getting pregnant for the first time at 34. My boyfriend and I were trying for 2 yrs and it finally happened and I was elated since its been my biggest desire to conceive. I am just hurt and feel like theres no hope for me although I want to remain positive. My D&C is scheduled for Friday, but I wish for another u/s before the procedure gets done. This is so devastating. Didnt realize how common this situation was.

[vivroxy]

You are honestly so strong, i am going through the same thing right now. I am 20 years old and was supposed to be 13 weeks yesterday but found out on friday that at 8 weeks the baby had quit growing and had passed away. I couldnt even believe it because i hadnt had any pain or bleeding and i felt so numb and in denial. I felt so sick that for 5 weeks after the baby had passed i still felt pregnant and never suspected a thing. I am now on thursday going to have the d and c procedure and am hoping for the best. my pregnancy had brought my family so much closer together and i just will be praying for all you women who are going through this pain and i wish you all the best.

[Dulcecgb]

HI, I AM SO SORRY TO HEAR THAT! THE EXACT THING HAPPENED TO ME AND I JUST HAD AN SUCTION ABORTION THE BABY WASN'T DEVELOPING SO THEY HAD TO REMOVED IT BECAUSE OF THE BLEEDING IT WAS CAUSING! IT IS REALLY HARD TO GO THROUGH THAT BUT IS FOR YOUR HEALTH! AND YOU CAN STILL TRYING! THANK YOU AND MAY GOD BLESS YOU!

[lindsey3]

Does anyone still view this site? My husband and I just had an appointment today at 12 weeks to have some genetic testing done. They performed the ultrasound and told us the baby had stopped growing at 11 weeks and there was no heartbeat. Our world has just stopped. This was our first pregnancy and we were so excited to be parents and welcome this little one into the world. Reading over these posts have helped me so much already. Just knowing we're not alone and it's more common than I think. What kills us the most is we just heard the heartbeat at 10 weeks..they were even able to pick it up on the doppler having telling us it might be too early for that..but there it was..! Now 2 weeks later we find out we lost it. It's so confusing. I hope someone out there is reading this. I go in on Tuesday (9/15) to have the D&C done. Do you recommend having them do one more ultrasound before the surgery just to make sure? God grant us all the peace to heal from this.

hopeful to hear back from someone..
lindsey

[Stauden]

I feel for all of you that are going thru this trying time.  My husband and I have tried for 2-1/2 years to have a baby, and finally turned to IVF (invitro fertilization).  We got our positive pregancy result on Christmas Eve!  Our first ultrasound followed a few weeks later and we got to see all 8.4cm of our little one.....including the heartbeat!  It all looked normal. We returned a few weeks later (at week 8) for the next ultrasound and got the confusing news that our little one was no longer there.  I could SEE movement similar to the hearbeat from before but was told it was just vascular action.  They then mentioned the possibility of a  "Molar Pregnancy".  So we left the office STUNNED and consulted the internet.  Of course the internet has too much info, so now I added the harsh word "Cancer" to my fears as well.  After reading the info on Molar Pregnancys we decided to go the D&C route rather than letting nature take its course.  That way we could get the verdict on if the Molar was caner or not.  The Doctor left a message that the test results came back "OK".....?  So now what?  I go back tomorrow for blood work.....and I have about 1000 questions.
I am just so sad and angry.  Am I am sick and tired of everyones meaningless platitudes...."It was God's will"..."There is a reason for everything"..."God never gives you more burdne than you are able to bare"....blah, blah, blah.  AND I have two dear friends that are also pregnant. I am so happy they still have the hope and faith and joy....but it makes me so sad.  I guess "Time heals all pain"......right?????

[JP77]

Hi, I am in a similar situation and could use some words of comfort or stories of similar situations.  I went in for my 8th week OB appt. and first u/s.  The doctor said fetus looked smaller than expected and couldn't find a HB.  He commented maybe I was earlier than 8 weeks.  He sent me to a lab where they did extensive u/s.  No HB.  Doctor told me it was bad news and I would m/c.  Recommended I could get a D & C, take some medicines to speed it along or wait for it to pass naturally.  I may be clinging to false hope but I wonder if I could possibly be starting my 5th week of actual embryonic development and that's why there's no HB?  my doctor said we could check it again in one week with u/s (unless I started bleeding earlier).  Has anyone been in a situation before where no HB b/c too early but there was a HB later?  I feel really sad.  I really thought this pregnancy would be okay.  I seem to have no trouble getting pregnant but they m/c early.  I had 2 m/c before--one at 6 weeks and 1 chemical pregnancy.  But, then drs. discovered I had pre-diabetes and I got my blood sugar under control.  I really thought that was the reason I'd m/c before and that this time, my pregnancy would be fine.  In my last 2 pregnancies, I had spotting.  But in this one, I had no spotting and the first blood test my doctor did on 7/27 showed good progesterone levels and normal hcg levels.  I know it's Nature's way and everything, but I just am clinging (delusionally?) to the hope that a heartbeat will miraculously occur this week.   I'm sad.  My husband's my rock and so positive but I know he's sad too, but keeping a strong face on for me.  I feel guilty too b/c I had a bronchial infection 2 weeks ago and a few times, my blood sugar went a bit high and I wonder if that's what caused it.  Sigh.

[mi_magic]

Hi all...

One of my very good work collegues (and good friends) has just experienced a VERY similar situation.  She and her partner have been trying for a child for the past 12 months, and FINALLY... they got the news that they were pregnant!

Unfortunatly, she went in for her 8 week scan, and no heart beat.

:(

I feel so sad for her (and for all of your losses.), and cannot imagine how much it must hurt.

Anyway, i will be sending her the link to this forum as I cannot think of any other way to provide my support.

Thank you for being so open and honest in your comments, it is refreshing and so important.

My thoughts are with you all... (and to you Lisa most of all!)

Stay positive!  Remember, for every sunset... there is a sunrise.

[Kids4all]

Please have your friend write us.  I have really established a great friendship with one of the ladies on this site.  If it weren't for her I would be so alone with this situation.  I found out my baby didn't have a heartbeat at 17 weeks.  It has been the hardest thing in life I have had to endure so far.  So, let your friend know we are here for her and it helps so much to talk to someone that has gone through this.  It has definately helped me alot.  Hope to hear from her soon.

[VLUGO9696]

DEAR CHASITY, HOW ARE YOU DOING TONIGHT? I HOPE YOU ARE DOING WELL. I
AM SO SORRY TO HEAR ABOUT YOUR DIAGNOSIS. I HOPE YOU DON'T MIND ME
ASKING BUT ARE YOU TOO DEALING EVERYTHING HAPPENING RIGHT NOW? I HOPE
THAT YOU BOTH ARE DOING WELL. ESPECIALLY YOU. I WANTED TO EMAIL YOU SO
THAT YOU COULD EMAIL ME THOSE PICTURES OF THE ULTRASOUND. I DON'T HAVE
AN AOL ACCOUNT AND I AM NOT SURE HOW I CAN ACCESS YOUR SCREEN NAME.
THAT IS WHY I AM EMAILING YOU ABOUT IT. SO WHAT DID THE DOCTOR TELL
YOU ABOUT THIS. WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN NOW? LET ME KNOW WHAT IS GOING
ON OK. WELL, I'M GOING TO SEND THIS ON IT'S WAY. I HOPE TO HEAR VERY
SOON FROM YOU. TAKE CARE AND YOUR IN MY PRAYERS, VICTORIA
PS STAY STRONG, AND DON'T GIVE UP CHASITY! :)

[prayer4chasity]

hey i dont have that much time to write but i got what you wrote to me and i thank u for that. i just wanted to give u my screen name because i have some pictures on my profile of the ultrasound that they said i was going to miscarry. it is ***@****. notice the yoke on the u/s, that was another reason they said i was going to miscarry the baby. because the yoke should be lighter then what it is and something about the baby is supposed to feed off of it and it hasnt. so if u know anything about the yoke or c anything in the u/s u can talk to me about, i would like that a lot. well have to go but hope to hear from u soon.

                                          THANKS SO MUCH,
                                                    CHASITY

[VLUGO9696]

Hi Chasity. How are you? I hope you are feeling much better. I was reading your posting, and I am sooo sorry to hear about your situation. As you know I too went through the same thing that you are going through right now, and let me tell you right off that I am so happy to hear that you doctor is making sure about everything, and not rushing into anything right away. My doctor was the same way he was very patient and told me to be patient and not jump into conclusions, but unfortunately he was right that the baby had stopped growing, and was no longer alive. Well, it just broke my heart and my husbands heart! This was one of the worst things I had to go through in my life along with losing my baby nephew Angel 4 years ago on Feb.11th. You were wondering about getting some info on the D&C. Well, when I went in to have the operation done I had it done in the hospital, and I was put to sleep, THANK GOD! I was so worried because I didn't want to be awake for the operation. What I wanted to know Chasity is what exactly would you like to know about the operation? Just ask me the questions and I will be more than happy to answer you. I too was very scared about the whole situation, and not knowing but these ladies here really helped me out, and if there is anything that I can do for you just let me know. You can ask me here or you can also email me if it would be more convenient for you at ***@****. what ever is easier for you. Just please don't worry Chasity everything will workout on it's own. I know it is easier said than done, but having gone through this situation myself two weeks ago I know exactly what you are feeling, and my advice to you would be if you are feeling something just let it out and talk to your boyfriend, mom, sibling, or your best friend. Because that is another thing that was very hard for me to do at first was to talk about it, but once I started talking about it with my husband and mom it made me feel so much better. I look forward to hearing from you Chasity, and I'll keep you in my prayers. I too am glad that I found this website because these precious ladies on here truly did help me out so much during this very hard time in my life right now, and I will help you out with any questions you may have. God Bless you and your family. Take care always.

[VLUGO9696]

Hi Chasity. How are you today? I hope you and your boyfriend are doing much better today. It was really great hearing back from you. Well, let me get to answering your questions. You wanted to know how did it feel? Well, when I has in the hospital waiting for the doctor to get there I was really nervous, and I just wanted to get the operation done as soon as possible because as time went on it just made me feel worse and worse knowing that my baby wasn't alive anymore, and I was just so sick all the time. I guess it was my body's way of letting me know things weren't right. Well, I finally went in for the operation, and I was really nervous when I got into the operating room and it was sooo cold. I was afraid of the unknown, and afraid that I wouldn't be able go to sleep when they gave me the medicine to sleep. Well, THANK GOD I did go to sleep in about less than 15 seconds after they put to sleep. Then when I woke up I was just so happy to be alive! I can honestly say I felt so much better mentally and physically. I just felt so much better I didn't feel so sick anymore. I guess what it was is that I finally was at peace with the whole situation finally being done, and now all I had to do was recover and deal with the situation at hand. Now don't get me wrong I was sad as heck to have this happen to me, but I just prayed to God and my family and friends prayer for me also and I honestly feel that God gave me the sense of peace I was searching for with this very hard situation. After the procedure I was bleeding, but it was due to the procedure and that was a part of it. I had some cramping, and I had a hard time peeing. Then the doctor gave me some tylenol #3 for the pain. I got home, and I took it and just fell asleep for a few hours. For the next two days I had a hard time peeing because I was in pain, but as soon as I would take the tylenol #3 the pain would go away, and I was finally able to pee. Although, the only bad thing about taking the tylenol #3 was getting constipated. So I chose to after the two days to start taking aleeve instead because I knew that it wouldn't get me constipated and I knew it would work. And sure enough it did help me with all of the pain I had from cramps, to my body aching. On the second day after the procedure I my body was really sore. BIG TIME. I felt as if I had been beaten up really bad all over my body. But, what it was was from them having to move me from bed to bed to and from the operating room and etc. Also the next day after the procedure I was back to doing things instead of taking it easy and it back fired on me, and that is why on the second day my body hurt so much also. So my advice to you is if you have to get this procedure done PLEASE take it very slow for a few days, and try to just relax and not do anything at all. Have you boyfriend help you out with as much as possible because you will need the help. Take my advice from my experience and just take it easy for a few days. It was very hard for me because I am use to always being on the go, and it just back fired on me big time. Also on the 4th and 5th day I start having blood clots come out when I went to the restroom, but the nurse told me that that was normal that was part of the procedure. I didn't like having to go through that for two days, but after that a few days later my bleeding went away. It was about 8 days that I had to go through the bleeding, but after that I finally stopped, and it went away. It was just the first two days when the bleeding was alittle bit heavy but after that it was like the 2nd to the last day of your period already getting light flow. So that was honestly the worst for me out of the whole procedure. But, everyone is different. Just because I bled for 8 days you might not. YOu might only bleed for 2 days. It just depends. Everyone is different. My sister in law also bled for about a week in a half after the procedure was done on her last year. The same thing happened to her like you and I. But, luckily she already has 3 children. But, after the whole procedure I can honestly say that everything was just going by very quickly, and I didn't have time to just think about the whole thing. And it was a good thing and bad thing for me. It was good because I was able to put my mind on other things, instead of getting depressed. But, once things started settling down my real feeling started coming out that I had held in because I wanted to be strong for my family, and it just made it harder on me. So my advice to you is to please if you have to have this procedure done please talk to your boyfriend, mom, sibling, best friend whomever and let them know exactly how you feel because I held it all in, and it wasn't good. I finally started feeling better about everything once I started telling my husband and mom exactly how I felt, and they were able to comfort me, and give he guidance and help. I too felt like you that it was my fault that I had done something to cause this. But, it wasn't my fault at all. I asked my doctor and he told me over and over that it wasn't. It is just something that happens 10-15% of people. But it was not anything wrong that I had done. He also told me that just because this happened this time it didn't mean it was going to happen the next time. These are just things that happen sometimes, but many women go on to have a successful pregnancy the next time around. So that did make me feel better. It was nothing that you or your boyfriend Chris did. Please believe me when I tell you that. Sometimes things happen in this world and we don't know why and we ask God why. But, just leave it all up to God, and I know you will get an answer one day. Also if you have to have this procedure done the doctor may be able to tell you why this happen. Sometimes what they do depending on how far along you are is they evaluate the remains to see what happened with the baby and in order to find out exactly what happened and why. So ask  you doctor about that. I too thought that this would never happen to me either especially since it was my first pregnancy too, after three years of trying with my husband. But, it did and I wish it wouldn't have happened this way, but unfortunately it did, and I just have to keep my head up, and keep on going strong. Yes, my husband and I do plan on trying to conceive once again. I have my follow up appointment on Monday Feb.6th, to make sure everything is alright after the operation. And the doctor said that we could start trying after a month once I get my period again. So hopefully in a month we will start trying again, because my husband and I are really excited to get pregnant once again. Two good things that did come out of all of this is that my husband and I got much closer. My mom, brother and I also got much closer. And we now know that I can get pregnant. Because for a long time I thought that maybe I couldn't get pregnant. But, atleast now I know that I can, and we can hardly wait to try again. I understand when you say that you won't have full closure until you get pregnant again. I totally understand how you feel. And that is fine. For me I felt a sense of closure once the operation was done, and I knew then and there that my baby was in heaven with God and my baby nephew Angel. After having the operation I felt a sense of closure because of the fact that I knew 210% that my baby had passed away, and that there was no doubt in my mind that my doctor was correct in his diagnosis. So I am grateful to God for that. I am really happy also that you have a really good doctor, and that your doctor is being extra careful before moving to having the operation done. You are very lucky to have a great doctor like that. I hope you don't mind me asking, but How is your boyfriend taking all of this? How are both of you two dealing with this? Well, Chasity please let me know how you are doing, and if there are any other questions I can answer for you. I am here to help you out, as the other great women helped me out during this very hard time in my life, and just let me know what else you need answered and I will answer you right away. I look forward to hearing very soon from you.
Take care,
Victoria

[VLUGO9696]

Hi how are you doing? I hope you are doing great. I just wanted to say Thanks for writing to me on here. I am so happy that I found this website. Just wanted to see how you were doing, and to let you know that my baby basset hound doesn't seem to want to get housebroken yet. But, I have faith in her that she will want to do it. By the way her name is Dorathy. How is your dog doing? I hope that your dog is doing great. I also wanted to wish you luck on getting pregnant also. I hope to also get pregnant once again this year hopefully. :) I am going to go and see my doctor on Monday Feb. 6th for a follow up appointment, and we are suppose to talk to him then about us trying again to get pregnant. He said that he would put me on fertility pills so that I could get pregnant sooner, so I am really excited about that. I am truly very lucky to have found such a great doctor. Well, hope to hear soon from you soon.
Take care.

[prayer4chasity]

Hi, it is Chasity again and some of the ?'s i had about the d&c were, how does it feel, were u scared, what was it like after it was over, how did u feel after the whole process was finished(pain,soreness,etc.),and just anything else that u could say that would be helpful for me? i have already enjoyed entering medhelp because i really think that this could help me throughout the situation and over time. i feel as though it is my fault and i ask myself ?s everyday like, was it my fault, what did i do wrong, could i have prevented it, was it something that i or my boyfriend chris did? all sorts of things are running through my head at this point in my life. i never thought that this would happen to me, especially being that it is my first time pregnant. i know that most likely the doctors are all the time right but what pregnant women for the first time would believe that they were not having a continuing pregnancy? not me!! the baby wasnt planned but we never would have wanted something like this to happen to us or anyone else. we hope to try again soon if this is really what the doctors say it is. are u and your husband going to try again, if so how soon? if u dont mind me asking. i feel like i wont have full closure until i am pregnant again. is the strange for me to feel? well me and chris are about to watch a movie together but i will be looking forward to hearing from u soon i hope. u are also in my prayers too! everyone who is having any kind of problems with anything at all.

                                            THANKS A LOT,
                                                    CHASITY

[prayer4chasity]

Hi, it is Chasity again and some of the ?'s i had about the d&c were, how does it feel, were u scared, what was it like after it was over, how did u feel after the whole process was finished(pain,soreness,etc.),and just anything else that u could say that would be helpful for me? i have already enjoyed entering medhelp because i really think that this could help me throughout the situation and over time. i feel as though it is my fault and i ask myself ?s everyday like, was it my fault, what did i do wrong, could i have prevented it, was it something that i or my boyfriend chris did? all sorts of things are running through my head at this point in my life. i never thought that this would happen to me, especially being that it is my first time pregnant. i know that most likely the doctors are all the time right but what pregnant women for the first time would believe that they were not having a continuing pregnancy? not me!! the baby wasnt planned but we never would have wanted something like this to happen to us or anyone else. we hope to try again soon if this is really what the doctors say it is. are u and your husband going to try again, if so how soon? if u dont mind me asking. i feel like i wont have full closure until i am pregnant again. is the strange for me to feel? well me and chris are about to watch a movie together but i will be looking forward to hearing from u soon i hope. u are also in my prayers too! everyone who is having any kind of problems with anything at all.

                                            THANKS A LOT,
                                                    CHASITY

[VLUGO9696]

Hello. How are you doing? I hope that you are doing great. I just wanted to Thank you for your great advice. It has been really hard going through all of this but as each day comes and goes it gets alittle bit easier for me. I can hardly wait to start trying to conceive a baby again. I have my follow up appt on Feb.6th, and my doctor said that he was going to put me on fertility pills so that when we tried to conceive it would happen sooner instead of it taking so long. So we are going to talk about all of that with him, and to see when the time is right to start trying. But, what I told my husband is that I don't want to be stressing about getting pregnant like I did for the past three years. Because as soon as I decided to just leave it up to God, and not worry about it I got pregnant a few months later. But, I can hardly wait until I get pregnant thought! :) I too felt a sense of closure after the operation was done too. I wasn't happy at all about it, but I knew that the baby had passed away and there was nothing that I could do about it, because if I could I would of done it in a heartbeat. And once we went to the doctor on the Friday before my next appt. the following checkup to see if the baby was alright, I started bleeding, and the doctor then and there checked, and he told my husband, my mom, and I that I was already in the process of the miscarriage. So atleast I knew 210% that the baby had actually passed away like he had thought the first time in the previous appointment, and that once I had the operation done I knew in my heart that the baby wasn't alive anymore, but had moved on to a better place in heaven with God. So knowing 210% for sure what had happened has brought a BIG time sense of relief to my husband and I and our family. I had to operation done, and I am finally not sick anymore at all. I was really sick before the operation because the baby wasn't alive anymore, and my body was dealing with it in it's own way and that is why I was sooo sick. But, after that I have been feeling much better. I was bleeding after the procedure for about a week, and one night I had big blood clots coming out, but the nurse told me that was normal. Well, luckily that only lasted one day, and then after that a few days later the bleeding stopped. So I have been feeling much better physically, and mentally. Having the support of my husband and family truly has made the BIGGEST difference for me towards the positive way, and I am truly lucky to have them in my life. The only thing that I can do is leave it up to God, and I know that my baby is in heaven with God and with his baby nephew Angel. Thank you for all of your help and guidance, and write to me when you get a chance to let me know how you are doing and how everything is going for you. You take care, and I look forward to hearing from you. Take care.

[VLUGO9696]

Hi how are you doing? I wanted to thank you for answering my question about the bleeding situation. I really appreciate that. I am really sorry to hear about your situation, especially also that your husband has closed up due to all of this. Going through this type of situation is very hard for everyone especially the parents of the baby. I know exactly how you feel, and about the crying everyday. But, it is good for you to cry, and let it out. That was my mistake I was holding it all in and being strong from my husband and I, and in the long run it just made things worse for me. Until I finally decided that I had to open up to my husband and my mom and just let it out about how I was feeling I started feeling better, and I finally started dealing with the whole situation. My advice to you is is your husband is having a really hard time about this and he is closing up to himself just keep on trying to talk to him. Even when he doesn't want to talk just keep on talking to him and let him know that both of you are going through this and you both need each other for moral support and help to lean on each other during this very hard time in your lives. Just don't give up on him. He will eventually come around it is just that he is deal with his grief of loosing his child his own way and unfortunately we all deal with grief in different way, but I know he will eventually come around to you. Also if you can talk to maybe your mom, your sister, brother or best friend and just let it out about how you are feeling and are going through it will truly make the grieving process much easier on you, and you will be able to handle it much better because you can let out all of your feelings about what is going on inside of you. Just remember that not to give up, keep your head up, and stay strong. Things happen in this world that we don't want to happen, but unfortunately they do, but the only thing that we can do is pray and not give up! I will keep you in my prayers. If you would like to talk to me more you can email me at ***@****. I will be more than happy to help you out in any way that I can. If there is anything else that I can do for you please don't hesistate to let me know, and please stay in touch and let me know how everything is going. I look forward to hearing from you. Know that this will only make your husband and you stronger people in the long run. It has truly been very hard for me, my husband, my mom, and my brother. This was my first child after trying 3 years to conceive, and then to have this happen was just one of the worst things to go through. I will keep you in my prayers, and I hope that you and your husband are doing much better, and as each day comes and goes your relationship is getting much better also, and that he is coming around once again. I look forward to hearing from you. Take care, stay strong, and pray. Keep your head up! Take care always