So we want another baby and after starting to ovulate again after 14 months I resigned myself to not loosing those last 15 lbs. I would start an exercise and diet routine for 2-3 weeks and then the fear would come over me, maybe I have a little baby on the way and I shouldn't get on that treadmill and I shouldn't be restricting my diet. Well each and every month I go through the dissapointment of no baby, now I look at myself nearly six months later and I just want to cry. I put off one goal for another and I still have nothing. The other day I actually turned down sex with my husband because I thought that I was implanting and I didn't want to mess anything up. I just want to say to all of you ttc out there that I know how important having a baby is to you, beleive me I know, but don't put other aspects of your life on hold because of it. If I had made myself my priority than I would be happier and healthier, and probably would have gotten pregnant by now if I was in better shape. Sorry just feeling very emotional.