I have no idea where to start on this. Guess I'll just dive in. 6w 2days pregnant and beyond paranoid. Before I found I was pregnant I was on a bunch of medications. Day after I found out, I dropped all of them cold turkey. Which at least one of them your supposed to be "whined" off of. I have a nice list of mental issues, a few are major depression, borderline personally disorder, ptsd. (Just to name the more critical ones). For the past10 days I've cut caffeine totally. I cant tell rather or not, all my pregnancy symptoms or some are actually from being pregnant or from the caffeine/medication withdraws. Also it's not uncommon for me to be emotional or overly b*tchy, when I'm not on those medication. That's the least of the paranoid crap. I wont touch anything with caffeine-cause of the risk of a miscarriage, I wont even go near my cat and freak out when he jumps on my bed, scared to take a shower or bath, flipped out on my boyfriend for not getting Prenatal vitamins till yesterday. I'm actually contemplating not letting my 7year old go to the first ultrasound, in case there isn't a heart beat. Also been paranoid, cause I was reading if you have diarrhea, it could be a sign of an early miscarriage. I'm also very overweight, which adds to me being paranoid. More nights then not I've gone to bed crying, holding my stomach and saying please don't die. I don't get my first ultrasound till the day after Christmas. My Dr. already knows about the medications, and how I went cold turkey on them all, she already knows I'm overweight(by a lot). Yet the only way I can get in sooner then my appointment is if my crampyness( that is pretty much gone) is on one-sided, which only time it is, is if I wait to go to the bathroom for to long, but then it goes away. I have even thought about lying about it to my Dr. saying I hurt like hell, just so I get in sooner. I just want the paranoid crap to stop. And no, being paranoid isn't "normal" for me. Right now I'd welcome sore breasts and morning sickness.