Testing or not testing!! :(

[Des_a_rae]

I'm scared, nervous and of course doubtful, but here goes....  I've been "trying" for over 8 yrs now and married for 12  and have NEVER seen a + hpt.  Anyways, AF is always on time, O is usually around the same time but this past month I had so much stress on me.  I was ready to be put in a nut house! My longest cycle out of 10 goes to CD34.  Today is CD35 and from the very beginning I could tell this past month was different.  I was getting bad headache, bouts of nausea off and on.  My temps when I have temp'd have been different and towards the end when it was "time" for AF all I was getting was gooey clear discharge and NO sign of AF what so ever.  I've had a dull achey lower back (which is normal for AF) but no cramps and to be honest my AF is a living he!!.  I hurt so bad that I have to knock myself out to deal with the pain, I can tell she's coming a week away and I'm usually in bed for at least 3 days. SO still no sign of her just the lower back hurting and just feel "full" down there. :S  The last 3 days I've had bouts of nausea that I've chalked up to the heat. The heat index here has been 105 for the last 2 days and I've been having headaches.  I've had cramps and twinges and I usually O around CD 17 or CD18 and if I did this time, it was about 10 days later that I got a cramp so bad down there it took my breath. Not sure if that meant implanting or what not but there has been 2 times that hubby and I have had sex that I would get very very light pink bleeding when I'd wipe, then it was gone.  Now the other day I was going to be gone all day and of course AF should've already been here so I wore a tampon just in case.  All day I was gone, got home and there was nothing on it but (sorry TMI) a big glob of white gooey discharge.  I'm SO scared to test.  Twelve years of being married, sick of seeing negatives and AF has never let me down.  My main problem is I'm afraid all the stress from last month messed up my cycle?  Are the odds high of that happening??  I'm sure in the last 12 yrs I've had stressful months and it's never messed up anything but that's in the back of my head that it did this time!!  UGH!!  I completely missed the month of May for AF and here it is June 3rd.  What do you ladies think?  I just don't know what to do and feel so doubtful that it's keeping me from testing.  Thank you all so much for the help!!

[GaliDanielle]

Same to you!!

[Des_a_rae]

Marisol_jose, Aww congratulations. So happy for you and your husband.  Thank you so much for your encouragement. :)

GaliDanielle, crossing everything possible and sending you lots of SSBD !! Hoping you get your BFP!!!

[marisol_jose]

That's really really good that you're taking prenatals . I totally understand on how u feel about getting that negative . Everytime I would get a negative I'd breakdown so bad :( I always blamed myself :( but then I realized that my time would come and sure enough when we stopped trying so hard I got preggers :) . You HAVE to let us know the results . I pray that you get the happiness you want and that all goes well. I'm here to talk anytime. Especially since I'm stuck here in the hospital . :( I've been here since Monday . I have pneumonia and it's NOT getting better :(

[GaliDanielle]

I defiantly do plan on it but I'm afraid of that neg result again. I just need to man up and do it. At least I've been taking prenatals since I have been ttc.

[marisol_jose]

I wish u the very best . I Was pregnant last yr (was a month) but had a MC .  It took ten long mOnths of trying to get a positive test :) now I'm so glad to say my husband and I are expecting a lil boy in sept. Don't lose your faith.  

[Des_a_rae]

Thank yall very much!!  I'm definitely going to test before the weekend is up because i work with my dad and he owns a construction company, so I do alot of manual labor and I know that's not good IF anyone is PG, plus volleyball night is saturday night.  IF I were to be PG is volleyball okay? lol.  I mean if this is my one and only chance at being PG I do'nt want to mess anything up at all by taking chances!!

Wow GaliDanielle!  This is the first time I've ever been this far in a cycle.  I never miss a period so I'm super nervous yet kind of, buy trying so hard to be to excited lol.  Do you plan on testing at all?? I wish you the best!!!

[GaliDanielle]

I would say test! But then again, I'm being stubborn myself. Its CD55 for me and I have yet to test myself only because I had missed a period once before and was unsuccessful at getting pregnant. Several neg hpt and I don't want to deal with it again. So your not the only one unsure about it. :) Test!
Good luck!!

[NicMom]

Good luck tomorrow!

[AHP84]

Can't wait to know the results! Keeping my fingers crossed for you!

[Des_a_rae]

Thanks ladies!!  If no AF today then I'm going to test tomorrow morning lol.  So nervous and scared but like you all said...I'll know either way!

[lucyof3]

Test!!! You Gotta know!!! One way or the other the truth is in the test...

[AHP84]

Test! ;-) You gotta find out one way or another! If it's negative (and I hope it's not) then at least you won't be wondering anymore, and you'll relieve just that much more stress from your life.

[alaysha]

Yes stress can mess up your cycle. Only thing you can do is test.

[Des_a_rae]

Thank you so much for answering!!   Do you know if the stress can throw things off?  I'm so fearful of that.  I keep thinking " Omg I'm later than normal, first time ever BUT last month was horrible".  I really don't want to get my hopes up.  

[snagglepuss1]

Hi,

take a test! at least you will know either way then and that will probably halve how much you are stressing! if you are pregnant a decent pregnancy test should give you a definite either way now, especially if you are and you are having all the symptoms you describe.
and if your not it might bring on af then?
all i can say is good luck, hope you get your bfp...go take that test! :D