hope you come back on here soon. Worried about how you are feeling.
wow. I totally feel your pain. Almost teared up just reading this....
I lost mine at about 14 weeks last October. It is still painful. I wanted one right away. I know it wouldn;t replace the other, but that is just how I felt. So, I completely understand how you feel.
In answer to your question: I guess there is no EASY way to get pregnant. Just lack of birth control, time & mother nature.
There are a few things I'm wondering...
Why you want this so bad??? Is it grief of Losing the first one, or are you afraid that your fertile years are comming to an end??? I am 33 and I'm afraid to wait too long, because at 35 fertility decreases. As much as you want this, it may not be a good idea if your BF isn't ready. If he isn't ready, you could face the possibility of having a baby on your own (which I am also experienced at). There may be the possibility of Your BF feeling extreme grief over losing the baby too, making him want to wait. Have you spoken in depth with him about it? Have you been able to pour your guts out to anyone???
10 months is a long time to feel this way. Is there counseling you can go to?? I always wished I did, but couldn't afford it. Unfortunately, Time doesn't heal all wounds. I wish I could say it will get easier, but I still cry myself to sleep a lot.
we are here.
Dear Tootz, can't even begin to envisage how painful your situation is. Your little angel knows who you are even if you never had a chance to properly know more about them. You asked what the easy thing to do now is, but this is something you and your bf only can decide. All i can is good luck in whatever decision you come to, and take your time so you don't do anything you might not be totally happy with later.