Guilty...vent

[becca87C]

I feel like a horrible mother, like I don't care about my little one...I do I love him...but I've known since the beginning of September that I was one point above the score which qualified me  to have Gestational Diabetes...at first I would watch my diet and check my sugar 4xs a day..they were mostly 90-98 fasting and 105-120 post meal when I ate good, after I got lazy, I don't really watch what I eat I just don't eat much of it. I know I'm putting my baby and myself in danger but I can't shape myself up...my husband tries to tell me for my own good and I'll say it's just a little but I'm not helping myself. I just needed to get that off my chest...I feel like a pos mom, like I should protect my baby and I'm the one putting him in danger...just had to vent that out...

[moozmommy7575]

Just tell yourself all the time this is for my baby.  Yell at yourself when you have the urge if you have to think of it this way are you willing to risk the little ones life got your guilty pleasure? Be strong you can do it

[eskawho]

Try not to worry to much and make sure to talk to your dr...one thing that might help is on your days off prepare meals in advance and free them for days when you want a quick meal...also there are many healthy crock pot meals just put it in and leave it until it's done... for snacks have veggies already cut, cheese, and fruits at the ready...I hate to cook so I often feel lazy in that as well but I am trying to get better.  It's never to late to get back on track...just stay strong and know your doing it for your little one.

[becca87C]

I'm going to try,was making a grocery list with what I was told I should eat...I'm so scared about having him prematurely...my last one was 8.8 but 9 days past due and the labor although short but it was rough. I want to get into the habit of meal preparing to avoid laziness especially since I work graveyard. Just the thought of having my little one away from me in the nicu upsets me...I'm now 21 weeks and I can imagine if I caused any damage, I hope I'm not too late :/

[eskawho]

You should really try to get back on track and talk to your dr about it...I have been a diabetic for years and I still struggle sometimes. My sister when she had her baby is diabetic as well and didn't take care of her self...baby was over a month early and was big over 8 pounds...my sister had a lot of trouble delivering her and because she was so early she had lung trouble and spent a month in nic u. Thank god she is now a healthy 2 year old but not taking care of your self can result in a lot of complications to you both.  Talk to your dr and he or she will work with you. I wish you luck and if you still need to talk I'm here just message me...I'm 19 weeks and I worry all the time about it...my blood sugars are mostly good sometimes a little high but I'm on insulin and my Dr makes changes as needed.