Trying not to get my hopes up...

[KristinnaS]

August 29, 2012 I found out my baby's heart had stopped beating.  I was 15 weeks pregnant.  I had to be induced and deliver him on Sept 10th and then had D and C.  I have had three cycles since the D and C.  We decided not to have anymore children.  We have 5 children ages 21 months, 4.5, 10, 11, and 12.  We figured loosing the 6th pregnancy which has been my only miscarriage ever was a sign that our family was complete.  Since half of our children were conceived on bc pills, we opted for spermacide use.  (worked for several years for us in the past)  AF was due Dec 9th... had some spotting on the 9th and the 11th.  Since AF still hadn't hit full force at CD 32, I took a test which instantly turned positive.  I am worried that either I am truly pregnant which scares me so much after the loss a few months back, or that this is residual hcg and I will need another d and c...  I called the docs and they are pretty sure this is a new pregnany.  I go on monday the 17th and wednesday the 19th to have my hcg levels checked.  If they are truly rising, then I am pregnant again.  I should be due on August 18th.  It is hard to know whether to be happy or not after the loss we suffered or allow ourselves to think maybe there is a baby without knowing for sure.  I have to wait till next friday to know for sure.  If I am pregnant, I hope that I dont have another second trimester miscarriage.  Anyone else in a similar situation?  

[amandammarcus]

So happy for you!!

[KristinnaS]

so, had my nuchal scan yesterday..  it was only 1.6 mm so the perineonatologist said down syndrome chances are low..  will wait for the blood test results to go with them on Monday or Tuesday so I know for sure my risks.  Also, the Doctor said, "Don't go maxing out your visa card yet till after your 20 week sonogram, but I am 98% sure you are having a little boy!"  I am 13 weeks today.  So far, I have had no symtoms, not even vomiting which was constant in all my other pregnancies.  I get tired easier, and some occasional heartburn, but nothing like my other times.  Anyway, so far the baby is doing great..  Heart rate ranges between 161 and 176..  the baby is exactly the size he should be and is a little acrobat everytime we see him..  Anyway, I am okay if it is a girl, but would be nice for a boy.  We will see in a few more weeks.  I am still nervous.. since I lost the last one at 15 weeks and induced at 17 weeks, but I am very hopefull since this baby is looking great.  My doc is going to have me come in around 15 weeks to check on the baby and ease my fears.  

Hope everyone else is doing well.  

[NikiHans]

Congratulations mama!! We had a loss at 13 weeks two years ago to the day that we found out we were expecting this baby. We've been nervous wrecks but so far everything is going really well :) those names are really nice names :) my next appt is also the 6th and our anatomy scan is the end of Feb.

[KristinnaS]

So far so good..  Ten weeks now.  It is kinda strange because other than my stomach getting a bit larger, I have no symptoms.  I have always been extremely sick with all my others, so this is really weird.  I saw the baby on the sonogram about 10 days ago, heartbeat of 171 and looked great.  Now just hoping to get past the point where I lost the last one so I can breath..  just 7 more weeks...  My next appt is Feb 6th and then Feb 8th for the nuchal scan.  We have picked names..  Destiny Olivia for a girl and either Jose Xander or Jose Liam for a boy.  

How is everyone else?

[KristinnaS]

I'm trying to be so careful... Gave up caffeine.,.  I miss sweet tea!  6 weeks today...  2.5 weeks till I get to see the baby via sonogram.  It's difficult.  I'm scared of another loss, but I feel kinda at ease that everything's going to be fine this time.  Just hoping for the best for all of us!  

[AlisaHinz]

I think it is so natural forus to worry, that's what makes us women naturally good mothers! (but it sure as hell is very annoying! )
I hope all of us will continue on,with healthy babies to be born this August. And while saying "don't worry about it,worrying doesn't help" is what ppl tell me, keep in mind that its natural and sometimes healthy to worry, as long as its not taken toan extreme. Blessings!

[TC2100]

I know what you mean about not wanting to get your hopes up. I miscarried twins in January when I was 10 weeks. Me and my husband decided to wait till September to start trying again. I am now 6 weeks and 5 days. We both took the miscarriage very hard and we were so excited to have gotten pregnant with twins. So we are both scared that there is the possibility that I can loose this one to. I have my first prenatal appt on Monday and I'm hoping I may feel more attached once I have my sonogram. I want to feel that motherly attachment I felt before but scared that if I do and I miscarry again that it will be another heartbreak. Even though people keep telling me that 80% of women miscarry and have normal pregnancies after, but I have heard of some women who have multiple ones. Can't help but worry that can be me. We do not have any children and we are both so ready. I'm glad to know I am not alone in these feelings.

[my3stars]

happy to hear that!

[KristinnaS]

Kristinna Sanchez






Got my hcg numbers back today. On monday they were 4203 and on wednesday they were 7604. So they increased by 80% in 48 hours which is great. My progesterone was 27.7 so that is looking awesome the doc said too. SO...looks like I am having a baby in August as long as this one lives. Sonogram on Jan 10th to check for fetal heart beat at 8.5 weeks preg. We are shocked... Husband said Merry Christmas to Us...lol.. He thinks the whole thing is funny.. I am not laughing, but hoping everything goes well this time.

[LaurenMH]

I also mc'ed in august at 15wks now im almost 7wks due august 4th. I couldn't possibly be any more scared im a ftm so the first pregnancy not working out really hit me and my fiance hard.... Still haunting us in this pregnancy its hard to celebrate it or even tell family members.... but we are trying to be happy and stay positive

[beautifulmum]

Hello i am right therr with you i lost my son at 20weeks in may and i am now 21 weeks pregnant expecting due in april. it has been the scsrest yr of my life.

[my3stars]

i am so sorry for all the misery u are going through! i had a mc, but in my first trimester and i don't know how you feel, but i feel for you!
i am sure it is good news for you! everything happens for a reason, i know that you are afraid to be happy or rather don't want to put your hopes up, but it is still good news! take a look at your children, they will be happy for you too and keep an open heart and you are right, leave everything in god's hands!