I really don't want a baby shower because no one is helping me, just my god mother and I. Me and my family have never been close because they didn't raise me and I've always felt like the black sheep. But wtf, you would think because I'm the oldest girl I'd get more support and it's just not happening...so at this point I'm not in the mood,,,me and my fiance already are having it rough because he's in the oil field and it's slow with work,,,but then I have to pay for half of my own damn baby shower,,,, I'm angry ,,I feel so much hatred in my heart idk what to do but pray....I'm sick of being strong and I cry so much...I thought the shower was suppose to be held by the family???