it's sad you feel that way, of course during pregnancy your mood will change and vary and you may find yourself dwelling on particular feelings. try to think of the miraculous work your body is doing to create and sustain a new life. do you plan to breastfeed? I know it's not he safe for everyone but I found that breastfeeding and eating a healthy and nutritious diet after baby was born meant that it didn't take long to return to my earlier weight.