I'm just coming up to 10weeks pregnant and I'm VERY excited to think I'm going to be a mommy, but my god I'm really not enjoying the pregnancy experience so far!
Having tried for nearly a year to concieve, then loosing our first at 10weeks after a problem riddled pregnancy i thought I'd be over joyed to finally have what has so far been a problem free pregnancy (in terms of viability)
Since about 5/6 weeks I've been nauseous & vomiting morning noon and night. I'm exhausted! If I don't get to bed by 8/9pm I start to feel even sicker!
I feel like I've literally no life and none of myself left in my life. I can't get out and do anything what with being sick and exhausted! I go to work, I come home and I go to bed!!!!
The latest addition is difficulty breathing, it's like that feeling you get before a panic attack, or when highly anxious! My blood pressure is perfect - my doc has just said it's down to changing hormones and extra blood!!!
Ughhh!!!
I'm now at the point of just wanting to lie in bed until all this passes! But I'm not sure I can get away with doing that for another 30 weeks! Lol!!!
Everyone raves about how wonderful pregnancy is, magical, you glow, radiance - I feel like I'm failing at the "most natural thing in the world" cause I hate it!!!! And I look like I've been dragged through a bush, there is no glow here!!!
Let's not even mention the constipation, bloating, gas, cramps, discharge..........
It's like my body is physically depressed (thank god I'm feeling ok emotionally and mentally other than starting to feel pissed off due to the physical side of all this)
I hate to complain, I'm meant to be greatful for this experience.
I feel sorry for my husband too as "this is all his fault" and "why did he do this to me" are regularly cried at him from toilet bowl hugging position and sex is something he knows used to happen in our marriage, i mean that's how his wife became this bat crazy lady he's now living with, but he's not sure it'll ever exist again!!!
1/4 of the way there!!!!