Yeah you are right. Thank you! It's been so hard because I never really told anyone because I don't wanna sound crazy but now I feel much better that I shared it.
I believe everything happens for a reason, you are not ready to be a mom if you're doing it for someone other than your own child. I'm sorry you had to experience this, but having a baby won't make any man stay any longer than he wants to. I hope you heal and heal well, for you.
I know how horrible it is to suffer a miscarriage. I had one last July and I know its physically and emotionally very draining. I'm so sorry you have to go through this. You're still really young you have a lot of time to have another baby, but don't have a baby just to make your husband forget about his ex or to try to save your marriage because it won't work sweetie. I'm sure it's just the hormones but that is a pretty silly way to think. You need to be an adult and realize that you chose to be with a man that has children with another woman and nothing is going to change that. He's never going to forget about her because he has kids with her, but that doesn't mean he wants to be with her. He chose to be with you for a reason, if he wanted to be with her he would be but he's not. Please do not have a child just to make his ex jealous or because you think it will make him forget about his ex and their kids together. It's not good to bring children into a bad situation and that would be a very bad situation. I know you're really emotional right now and you probably feel like 'why does she get to have kids with him but I can't'. Trust me I went through that and it gets much better with time. You still need a lot of time to mourn and deal with your emotions. Like I said you're really young and have a lot of time to have babies, so try to stay positive. Everything will get better:)