some emotional issues..not sure how to deal

[mw89]

Its really hard for me to put this out there but its been a significant part of my days lately so here goes..
last year I had a baby aborted at 10 weeks. For some serious reasons.
I am 10 weeks now with my little bean. And I have been having major anxiety that something will go wrong with this baby due to karma, fear, whatever.  My boyfriend has been trying hard to get me through this but maybe it will help me further with some feedback from other mommas.
Though I know i did that last year for the right reasons I still feel grieved from it.

[nonishy]

You will always think of this, no matter what. It will always be there. The best thing to do is look at the positive side of everything. If it still bothers you, find other women you can talk to who can relate. Or even a therapist,  sometimes you just need someone to listen. You can also try journaling is a form of self therapy.  Very helpful.  Putting your thoughts and worries onto a piece of paper helps get them out of your head. And will help you with this and a lot more. You may even enjoy it.

[mw89]

Thanks I really appreciate the feed back. I am definitely going to focus on my baby

[jessenia2424]

I did the same 5years ago i do regret now but i pray to my god, and i fear also something might happen im 39weeks now and thank god my pregnancy has been going great im just scared that day comea for him to be born something bad happen:(

[juno92]

Sorry you're dealing with this. Just keep your head up. Your conscience is clean. Just take care of yourself and the baby inside you and everything will be alright. You know the reasons you did what you had to and as long as you're at peace with that, you can move on. Good luck. Sending positive vibes your way

[mw89]

Thank you hab for the prayers. I really appreciate them I have prayed about it. I swore to myself I would have never done that but It was for the one circumstance that I always thought I would do it for if I did. Needless to say I am dealing with that and the assault that lead up to that. And I am trying my best to heal emotionally and spiritually.  
My new baby is lucky and so loved already. I think  hi is one will help me move on.
I am  really hoping for a girl because to name her after my gma I lost over the summer I feel like that may help with the lose of that amazing woman that meant the world to me. If its a she her name will be Annalee Pearl.  Pearl was my gma name. But if its aboy I will love him just as much. Its been a tough year and  i am ready to move forward with baby.
sorry for the long post a lot has been on my mind

[reecie_pooh21]

How do women deal with emotions when it comes to a guy. The guy obviously can't understand how you feel and sometimes make u feel like crap but u still deal with em due to your unborn child and because you care so much. Sometimes i wonder if going through this pregnancy is even worth it or if it's best to walk away

[hab63380]

Pray pray pray !! And I will pray for u !

[knufrio]

You will be fine. I myself terminated a pregnancy about 9 years ago. I never regretted it, because I to believe I did it for good reason and it was the right decision in my life. I am now happily married and my hubby and I are expecting our first baby, a girl, next Monday... I was a little anxious like you in the beginning, especially when the drs would ask "is this tour first pregnancy" and I'd have to explain. The one night I had to say it in the ER to the Dr in front of my MIL (who thankfully didn't react). Just remember that your decisions that you've made in the past have led you to he where you are today. If you hadn't made that decision last year you wouldn't be where you are now. Everything will work out.

[xctedmom]

Just keep on praying.