Depression, plz read.

[Crystal0093]

So I really need some advice. So please respond mamas. I love my daughter with all my heart. Whenever I had her about five weeks ago I went thru postpartum depression and the doctor got me on depression pills ... I knew I was depressed cuz I would cry constantly and just be hating my life, my daughter I believe has colc cuz from 7pm till 11pm she screams her head off and it is VERY hard almost impossible to get her to calm down well anyways I thought after being on the depression meds for about two weeks I was handling her fits much better so I thought I could get off the pills and be fine, well now when she has these fits instead of being sad and crying constantly (which is how I was when going thru depression) I just get real angry an most of the time have to lay her down and let her cry it out cuz I just feel so frustrated an don't want to do anything to hurt her, I don't think I would ever ever hurt my baby but sometimes when she gets these screaming fits I feel like I could so that's why I have I lie her down and walk away .. Anyways I'm wondering if I'm so angry if I could be depressed again and need to go back on the meds or if I'm just angry from dealing with these fits every single day since she was two weeks...
I am just debating if I should get back on the pills or no cuz idk if I'm depressed or just feeling angry cuz of how long this has been going on for, plz give me advice I really could use it ... Plz no judgement..

[Crystal0093]

Thank you @ joanie8858 .. I appreciate the encouragement. I deff plan to get back on the meds tomorrow, if I knew it could make things worse I would've never got off of them in the first place I was just feeling so good that I thought I could handle being off of them but apparently not. I'm glad I'm not the only one who felt like that cuz I really don't like feeling tht way cuz I could never imagine doing anything harmful to her cuz I love her so so much, it just gets so rough that I feel like I'm going to lose it sometimes.
@ joannagonzalez - yes being a ftm is overwhelming and beyond stressful I am trying so hard to be calm and try not to get angry. After dealing with screaming everyday since she's been 2 weeks old tho it gets hard to take it after awhile.

[joannagonzalez]

I live no were near family and my husband goes on the road a lot so I kinda feel your pain but I worked on it and now its great. You have to cope to it.

[joanie8858]

Yes going on and off anti depressants isnt good. It can make things worse, I didnt know that either and did the same thing, once I went back on them it got better. And dont worry my mom was the same way when she had my brother. She went to the doctor and was like im scared im gonna hurt him. She knew she wouldnt but she got really frustrated like you. Its normal to get overwhelmed just get back on meds and talk to your doctor sweetie. It will take a little while to level out maybe vut I promise it will get better hun. Best of luck with your little one

[joannagonzalez]

I kinda felt those feelings but its just cuz we stress being a new mother so were getting used to it. But I never made it lead to depression. Its your mentality just stay positive and when ur baby is cranky just stay calm everything is going to be okay babies will cry its there only communication and it can be stressful but you just take a deep breathe and relax :)

[Crystal0093]

Thank you. I didn't know that, I thought once you get on depression meds since I was feeling way better I was able to be off of them..
I was never on depression meds before so I wasn't aware..
I'm going to start back up on them tomorrow.

[aac1992]

You need to get on the meds and stay on them. You cannot go on and off anti depressant and anti anxiety meds on a whim. You were handling stuff better because you were on the meds so going off of them was not the answer. Get back on the meds and take them like you are supposed too. Also you may want to contact your doctor and maybe see if you can get some counseling

[Crystal0093]

.

[Crystal0093]

Can I ask how it can be dangerous?

[nellebaby24]

Never stop taking depression meds it can be very dangerous and depression gets much worse it takes at least 4 weeks to get the full effect of all depression medication. I know I take it on a daily basis since I was 15 and still currently do

[Crystal0093]

She is on formula. She is on similac alimentum and I even told her doctor that maybe this formula wasn't working for her and she said no that this is the best one for her right now so I have no clue :(
Alright I'm going to get back on my depression meds tomorrow, I regret getting off of them now.

[Meterspichel]

Girl you definitely shouldn't quit meds unless it's okay'd by your doc... Keep your head up the bad parts don't last forever(:

[cwash12]

I agree get back on your meds. Being a new mom is very hard. And sleep deprivation will not help your situation. Also is your daughter on formula. I went through so many kinds before I found the one that worked for my son. It may help. Stay strong and lots of luck!

[Miss_Courtney]

If you're questioning whether or not you should get back on the meds, then, you should. Don't let the situation get to you even more than it already is. You don't need that added stress, on top of the current.

[Crystal0093]

Bump

[Crystal0093]

Btw incase you all are wondering, my husband works night and sleeps all day so it's pretty much like I'm doing this all alone ... I don't have any family to help out so I just got to figure out ways to deal with this by myself :(