Has anyone Else felt this way after birth?

[cng18]

I cant stand my husband i want to be with him but in the same breath i don't want to be with him i think about leaving him everyday more so when I'm angry at him... i cant stand for him to touch me i just want to reach out and hit him when he does... he annoys me so much he is so needy. he is always texting me and when i don't text him back he ask me what I'm doing assumes I'm talking to another man instead of him.... i am taking care of a NEWBORN! and he doesn't understand that! its like he is competing against our son for my attention he is always asking me to do stuff for him that he can do like fix himself a sandwich when I'm trying to sleep!

when he kisses me i feel like he ***** the air right out of my lungs and i have to push away from him because he is smothering me. he gets upset when i don't want to talk to him or cuddle or anything he thinks I'm falling out of love with him... and honestly i have no idea what it is am i falling out of love with him or am i just going thru a hard time and directing it towards him

with my son the first 2 weeks i wanted everyone to hold him (not that i didn't want to) i just liked how people wanted to hold him now it annoys me how everyone wants to hold him and i wish they would go away and stop bothering him i want to be the only one to hold him i don't even want his father (my husband) to hold him....

Basically I'm not upset with my son i want to be around him nonstop but my husband i want to seriously divorce him and never see him again but when i got to tell him that i don't love him and i don't want to be with him i stop and think is this really what i want? or am i just angry at him and i want to make him hurt like he has made me hurt.

This all started after i gave birth and idk what to do has anyone felt this way after birth or is it something different

[LittleMumToBe]

Grow Fonder * not stronger

[LittleMumToBe]

It sounds just like sinking into ppd, however that should only last a week or so if it persists it could be serious signs of depression, I'm pregnant now and grew up hard with a lot of mental issues and sometimes I can feel the same emotions seeping in that I can only remember having during my deepest set of depression, wanting to be alone or with someone you feel safe with (your child) hating the people around you and finding excuses to be mad at them just so you can get away from them, isolating yourself isn't something that would help but getting some "fresh air" could, in other words distance makes the heart grow stronger, you live with this man you're in a very serious part of your life with him perhaps find a gf or family member you can go stay a day or two with get some space and clear your head, I get scared the same things sometimes I scream and cry and just want to hurt my partner and sometimes I worry I'm only with him for the baby but when I get space when I'm alone I feel incomplete and I just want to be back with him again

[Londres70]

Cng,

I suggest you seek counseling asap as this is very concerning.  

Do you have any history of depression and/or anxiety?

[perch101]

I'm sorry you're having a hard time. It sounds like you could be depressed which is common after having a baby... If these feelings are new since having your baby this is probable... Can you speak to your doctor?

[thatquietgirl]

I think birth brings on a lot of changes.  You both lose sleep, and that combined with the out of whack hormones and all that is needed to care for a newborn, anything beyond that can become overwhelming, anger-inducing, and annoying.  Your husband sounds like he misses you and doesn't quite know how to express it.

How long ago did you give birth?