Help, please! So lost right now....

[Dian00]

Good evening Dear Forum,

I hope I am posting this in the right forum. I'm gay, I've been with someone for two years and about three months, I cheated my partner by meeting someone new, and not telling my partner at all. I met a gorgeous guy and fell in love with him, we've been so happy for the last three months. He wanted to get serious with me, so I told him that I was in a relationship with my partner as well. He run away from, he does not want me anymore. Yesterday, I told my partner about this, and he left me too. I feel so bad now, I lost both of them. I am so broken emotionally, I cant eat, cant sleep, dont go out, just staying home and smoking cigarettes. I am afraid I am having a nervous breakdown?
What should I do guys, help me please, as I feel like the whole world is against me. Now, I also feel insecure with myself, beauty, personality and pride. How can I move on, please? What should I do?

Thanks to all

[Diani00]

Thank you for your ideas and advices!
I just cant get over the pain, it hurts a lot...I feel so lonely and frustrated. I guess, I was not in love with my partner, but still cared about him a lot.
Today, my partner called me on the phone and said I am willing to forgive and forget, and I told him : No, I am not coming back. But, the other guy is not calling me at all. I think I love more the new guy over my partner. But, this new guy is so hyper-sensitive, he would get hurt for nothing, like if I would say something, he would over-anylize what i said and then get so emotional, why was this, was it because he was in love with me?

Thank you guys!
Hugs

[teko]

Honestly, Your actions revealed something that was not to pretty to either of them. The guy you have had the longest found out you did not feel the same about him all this time. And the newer one obviously does not date people in current relationship. You lied and cheated on both of them and now you must take the consequences. I think you should just stay on your own for awhile and not make this mistake in the future. Trust, once broken is very hard if not impossible to restore. Ben and Jerrys sounds like a good idea. I am sorry that you and the guys are hurting!

[heatherlynn22]

have you tried apologizing? or explaining to him why you lied and never told him you had a partner? if that doesn't work....ben and jerry's ice cream and a lot of romantic movies will help. before i was married and if a bf that i really liked and i broke up i'd watch sleepless in seatle, what women want, you've got mail and two weeks notice. i'd have a good cry and be good.

[Dian00]

They both loved me to death, and now both of them hate me! I cant get over this, I am going insane.

Anybody, any idea???

[Dian00]

I lost both of them, but I do love more the new guy over my partner. The break-up with the new guy hurts more than with my partner. I cant believe this is happening to me.

I feel so lonely now, I lost both of them!

Any help, please.....