You don't say exactly how old You are but You do refer to YourSelf as an Adult and You allude to a couple of incidents when You were 22 years old and 23 years old, so, we (You and I) agree, You ARE an adult. The best advice I can give You is to remove YourSelf from this picture.
realize this......
We are ALL born in a "pit". Some "pits" are deeper than others, but it is OUR job to climb out of the "pit" and to take responsibility for the Adult we CHOOSE to be. Key word here is CHOOSE - We do, we really, really do, have choice. This is not to suggest that it is easy ,but I do suggest - it is always in our power to CHOOSE.
On a personal level: I quit "being" a victim when I no longer saw myself as a "victim". When I (finally) realized that no one could hurt me without my "permission", IT SET ME FREE. I also found that when I did the thing I feared the most....well, I lost my fear.
This was SO liberating!!
Good Luck, I Hope You Find Your Way
Well, from what you've said, I'd say the only clear solution is to find a way to get on your own and then file for a PFA. That's just crazy and you shouldn't deal with it.
Good luck to you.