I had my son when I 20 yrs old, his dad, my spouse, died in a car accident in 2001. I met another man after some time and we had 2 children together, we separated in 2010. He was physically abusive and I wasn't perfect either, I would complain about things not getting done, housework etc, him going out partying, we just didn't last...I have been a single parent since 2010 and have worked hard for them. My eldest son and I started not getting along when he was 11 or 12. He was disrespectful to me and our relationship wasn't that great and hasn't been since. I wasn't a perfect parent and have made mistakes, from 2012 to May 2017, I also drank more than I should of. It didn't effect my work, but now looking back I realize that I should of did better for him, be there for him more. Since high school he has a problem with his attendance, and he also had some problems with bullys.
I have always wanted the best for him and would get upset when he would miss school, or not help enough around the house.
He is now 17 and absolutely hates me, he says I was a bad mom and was never there for him, he says do many hurtful things and I feel broken over this. I recently in Oct 2016 met a man and we have been in a relationship since then. He is now currently moving in and going to be moved in by the end of August.
We had quite a surprise in June and we found out we were expecting a child. We look at it as a blessing, I'm 38,hes 47 and we are excited for this new chapter. He is great to my kids, he's not perfect but he's a good hard working, loving man. I came home from work in June and my son skipped school again, it's his grad yr and I wanted him to suceed. The last fight we had over schooling he freaked out because I was giving him a lecture, and he took a baseball bat to my walls. He has been in the ladt year calling me names, saying mean things. I told him if this behavior continues he would have to stay with his uncle or grandpa because it was a horrible energy in the house and the younger 2 were so upset over the fighting.
So back to June, I came home and he was playing on his ps4, missed school, said there was no point in going because he wasn't going to grad anyway. I told him fine then go out and get some work. He said I'll just leave and he did. He doesn't like my new boyfriend either and Now he's saying I have to choose between my partner and my son. He says if my partner is here he's not coming home, and he can't believe I have chosen to live this way and he hopes I'm happy. He says I've wrecked everything and that I've been a terrible parent to him.
I love him and I don't know what to follow.. I feel broken, is there someone out there that can give me some advice, do I tell my boyfriend he can't move in, do I bring my son back knowing the fighting may start again. He says I'm chosing my bf over him.. What do I do. He is now living with his aunt and uncle