Honestly I just want to be single. I don't want any more commitment with anyone. I just want to enjoy being single. I'm not concerned about "mingling." I don't mind having a good conversation, just hanging out and just doing something. Any guy that approaches me now.. I clearly state;;
"I'm not looking for commitment nor am I wanting sex."
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I met a man I will call him; Harry. I've known Harry for two months now. Without me really needing to tell you I caught feelings for Harry, and at this point they are VERY strong, but I still do not want a relationship, but I still want to speak with Harry, I would love to get to know even more about him.
Things got physical; holding hands,kissing,pet names, touching, and oral.
As of two days ago...I sent Harry a message telling him though I liked him I needed to step away, from confusion, from him because I didn't see a true purpose in us continuing whatever this is..I definitely cant say "FRIENDSHIP".
He just asked me {{WHY}}}..>> 4 times << and I just said I don't see a purpose, and with his 4th " why? " I got kind of annoyed and just say "Bye Harry -.-"
He says okay "KK Later."
So I'm sound in my decision for ...several hours. lol ... Then I get to a point where I'm alone, and when I am alone I think TO MUCH.
I wondered things like; "Is he thinking about me? Does he still have feelings for me? I wish he would step out of himself and just say something to me, a call ,a text."
So instead of "Waiting" I sent a message only to see if he would answer, and he did ...I was a little surprised he even responded. I say "Harry." he says "Sup."
You know I really just wanted to see if he would respond. I didn't want anything else. I feed him some BS when he asked "What did I really want?"
He says "Well, we aren't suppose to be talking. So lets keep it that way"
So I stopped talking, but than LESS then fifteen minutes later ... again... just to see if he will respond, I say something else and he responds again.
I suppose he responds because he DOES miss me. I still really want to get to know him. I love talking to him, he's so fun to be around. I like being around him. I don't care for the physical. Its nice, but un-needed. I've told him that, and he is the same way, but knowing that we have feelings...and then being alone and having feelings..things happen, but they don't have to.. That's understood.
I don't know.
I just need an outsider. I want to hear what you guys have to say about this entire ordeal.
even before I encounter Harry