I have had a slight crush on a coworker for a while. We hang out after work a lot and I have been in a position to show her how I feel but, I freeze up and can't make the move. This intense fear of rejection just turns me into stone. Looking back, I found that I have had this problem before. The girls that I really like, that I know would work, I can't make the right moves. I've been with many women, some relationships and others friends with benefits. Not all I had to make the moves on, some made them on me. But, in 3 cases that I know of, all the stars aligned and I blew it. I froze up. It seems as if the ones that I know won't work out in the end, I have no problem with. I am also 2 years out of a relationship that got further than any, although it didn't last as long as most. In that relationship, we moved in together and she just got "tired" of me but, to be fair, I think I subconsciously made it hard for her to love me. But, then I was really depressed and missing her. Sometimes I blame the glass wall on the fact that whatever my ex found wrong with me (in which she would never elaborate on) the next one will see as well. I also think I may have a problem with being happy in general. I don't equate happiness with relationships but, I generally find it in watching my sport teams, substance abuse, and in some art work. I can't come by it naturally. Sometimes those things don't do the trick either. I don't know what's going on in my head but, I do know that I'm 33 and lonely as hell. And can't seem to do anything about it. If someone could just give some friendly advise or anything that may let me know that I'm not alone.