Tired of feeling alone.

[CindySpivey]

I'm so tired of feeling alone its just eating me up. I have no family, they all live over seas. I haven't seen or spoken to anyone in many years. Even my mother, the 1 person you need the most ESP pregnant & raising children. I guess you could say we are hard as bulls & neither 1 of us can learn to give in or move on from the past. Its sad.. I have 2 girls. 1 is 10 who lives with her father. So I basically feel like i dont really have her like I wish could. Every other weekend & holidays will never be enough. My youngest is my pride &  joy. Shes been with me since day 1 and never been any different. I been married 3 times now, started at 18 so go figure. Its the same everytime too. Get married have a child & divorced. Its depressing. I feel like its gotta be me something ain't right. Here I go again 9 months pregnant married & its going down hill fast. We fight all the time. It never ends. & on top of that he is never around always working & when he is home its quite depressing or he is asleep. We have our good moments but they never last. A week after I have my first boy he will be gone for months. Its depressing its lonely.... he works in pipeline & ill say this it takes a certain kind of woman to be able to deal with that kind of lifestyle. This is my first experince with it & I hate it! I don't know what to do or think anymore. Even having a friend would be nice. Just tired of feeling alone. But other than that I got 4 weeks left... more than ready for that to be over with too.

[Londres70]

I can't really say the "hormones" are really the problem here.  They can cause you to act and think a bit intenser than usual, but sounds like this problem has been ongoing for years.

What is the background history with your family which caused the distance between you and them?  These family issues could be the reason you are hopping from marriage to marriage.  You aren't really addressing the real issues, but trying to mute them in these serial marriages only to end up at square one once again with more and more emotional baggage.

I can tell you life is TOO short to be dwelling on the past and perhaps you should consider making amends with your family if that is possible.  

I would recommend you sort all this emotional baggage out with a professional therapist especially since you have children.

[CindySpivey]

Thank you ladies :)

[LilAngelsMommy1]

My fiance is constantly working day and night and its the same with him. When he's home we fight or he sleeps. Hormones tend to play into it sometimes too as far as the fighting goes on my end. I have two boys anda step daughter and am currently 19 wks 1 day pregnant so iit's tough. Ive got more than enough going on emotionally with my children and am pregnant and i don't work so he is the one financially maintaining for our family. I also don't really have family support so i understand where youre coming from. The best advice i can give is to take it one day at a time. Things may seem like they're terrible but really only time will tell. Try to stay as stress free as possible for you're unborn baby.that's what always keeps me at least somewhat sane. Good luck and i hope everything works out for you.

[fantasiawilliams]

I used to feel like that too dont dwell on the negative

[fantasiawilliams]

I used to feel like that too dont dwell on the negative

[CindySpivey]

Thank you

[MuMa5]

Talk to your doctor. You could have depression and don't let it go untreated. Now pregnant with my 5th and finally dealing with it. Don't wait till it's too late.