What do I do?!

[beanie_white]

Hey so I am 18 and have been with my boyfriend for two and a half years he is now 25, I do love him but since february we had been argueing and things were just getting really bad he gave me numerous reasons not to trust him e.g. messageing other girls asking for their numbers and just generally never around (seeing as we live together makes it much more noticable when he's not around) then slowly things spiralled he started spending alot of time with this girl and would lie to me about going there and just say "she is just a mate" then there were 2weeks where he didn't come home at night, he would stay out all night then go to work and he even told me it was because he didn't want to see me! and he ditched me all the time because he couldn't man up and deal with the issues he had caused, he was pushing me away and its hurt i cried all the time (I think i now have depression) and then he fell out with this he was spending all this time with she even came up to me when i was work and started being rude to me! after a few weeks well the week of the Queens wedding uk - He claims he kissed her and I didn't know and then on the wedding day he texted me saying pretty much it as over and there was a huge hoo har! and I went out and kissed someone else I know it wasnt right but he dumped me i loved him moved from my hometown of london at 16 to 200miles away to be with him so i was upset and angry and wanted my own back, then a few weeks later he went for a sexual health check up and He had chlaymedia... and then obviously so did I, however I know I havn't done any sexual activities with anyone but him but he then told me He kissed that girl (who had apparently just given oral to bloke with possible C!) and kissed him and thats how he contracted it but I dont believe him the doctors said its not impossible but very rare but I've lost all trust and I gave him a second chance and nothing feels like its changed I still dont trust him and we argue because of it and now I'm slowly feeling like I want to end it however I love him and can't bear to hurt him even tho he hurt me and caused me so much pain and my mum is angry with me because I havnt I know i dont deserve what he did to me! and I cant find the courage to do it, I spend alot of time with him as i moved up to him and had very few friends he had been huge part of my life, Please help me :(

[beanie_white]

Thank you so much! your comment and self believe have given me the courage to end things! they weren't right! thank you for such a lovely comment! xxxx

[queendiamond]

Sweetheart I know you love him,but you must love yourself more! So work! Save some money! find your own place! Pray!!!!!!! Leave him!!! Leave him!!!! Pray!!!! Your young and special! Beautiful! Smart! And God loves you more....and always remember!!! Love! Don't hurt! Love don't cheat! Love don't bring home chlaymedia!!!!!!!!!!!! Stop!!!! Stop!!! His not better then you.and his not the only man in the world. His treating you like that because your allowing him too so stop!!!! It!!! Real talk!!!! Stop!!! Leave!!!!! Things won't get any better.I'm not trying to make you feel bad sweetheart but love is a gift from God to all man kind and love is special and apperiated and honorably giving to one another. Good luck & my God be with you in your time of need.