Ok so here's my story, I'm a 17 year old girl and I've known this 17 year old guy for four years, when I first met him we had an immediate connection he asked me to be his girl, ( my very first relationship) it only lasted a week when I cold heartenly broke up with him, after about a month of not really talking much we became best friends. For some reason I've always crushed on him after the break up and haven't dated anyone else( sadly the opportunity has never risen) and he has dated 4 other girls who he always tells me how much he hated being with them. Lately things have been getting complicated. At school he would walk me to class, teachers would question if we were dating, we went to prom together, all my friends think we would be adorable together and he wants an official relationship but he's being patient for me, because I say I'm not ready for a relationship when in reality I don't know I want a relationship with him, he always makes me feel good I have a hundred percent trust in him he supports anything I do, he gets along with my friends, but he seems to have more in common with them than me, I would consider myself an ambitious hardworking teen and I value that, I work with a variety of livestock animals, I have a summer internship with a livestock vet, hopefully I will one day work in conservation and i love to spend time out doors early morning, I love any kind of music rap country pop rock classics anything! I'm usually into a guy with some muscle tone, for some reason lean towards brown hair with some facial hair and would love a guy who has interest in live stock, and a guy who could make me laugh and feel protected, I almost feel like the more masculine one
Unforutunatly Jeremy, the guy I'm kinda with, hates cows, doesn't know squat about livestock, play bass and is extremely oppionionated about the music he likes and most of his music I'm not much of a fan of, he's probably the worst morning person, He only weighs 120 lbs and I'm 115 and i know I could easily win an arm wrestling match because he used two arms when we were fooling around when I only used one, and he has blonde hair
I know looks shouldn't matter but I have zero physical attraction to him I like my rough mans man, on the good side he does deal with me and makes me feel good about myself he's the first guy I've kissed and I love the way it feels when we start to make out but sometimes he just keeps going and I start looking at the clock, he's going away on vacation and he wants to see me tonight before he goes I would honestly rather sit at home, I know when I go to his house wel cuddle on his couch watch a movie make out hel feel up my breasts hel walk me to my car Kiss again then il go home, it's just so predictable, but for some reason I go from feeling like I'm in love to dreading having to drive an hour to his house
Am I just too pick? Could I be incapable of developing relationships? I question am I a lesbian I'm not into female genitalia but hey why not make it an option
He's so good too me he would do anything for me so why am I such a jerk
Thanks anyone who read all this!!