why can't i have sex?

im 19 and i been with my boyfriend for 2months. I lost my virginaity with him like a week ago. It really didn't feel special to me i don't understand why eveyone says its the best feeling ever. To me it was nothing. I really care about this guy a lot and i love being with him but sex is whatever to me and plus it hurts me a lot and i don't know why it hurts me. He says its normal to hurt but i don't know if thats true. Last night we tried to have sex again but i push him away. Why would i push him away now after we already had it? I really don't know. I feel embarassed and uncomfortable. I am very shy and i got no self estem but every guy is always telling me how beautiful,hot, etc i am but i still got no self estem. when im naked around him i feel so uncomfortable and its not just him im sure i would feel that way around any guy. Why do i feel like this and how can i change this? My idea of a relationship is just going out and having fun if it was up to me there would be no sexual realtionship for me.

[Judy2468]

Hi, I hope you used protections, because you can easily get pregnant the first time. Abstenance is recommended also. This is a new experience and yes, the first time it's uncomfortable, awkward, painful and your body will be sore for a few days. Soke in warm water, it will help. Do not feel obligated to have sex if you are either not ready or do not want to. Lovemaking takes practice and experimentation, but do not do anything you are not ready for.

[xkaylee]

Yes we used protection, of course we did! we don't want kids now lol

[Judy2468]

Good girl! Soak in warm water...it will help and practice makes perfect.

[jenkaye21]

It doesn't usually hurt after the first time.  Hopefully he is considerate enough to take it easy, go slow.  

Of course, if you don't want to have sex with him, then DON"T!  Your feelings may be a sign that you aren't ready for a sexual relationship; with anyone, or just with him.

[xkaylee]

Being 19 if im not ready for a sexual relationship now then i don't think i ever would be.  I think im old enough.