Thanks Grace,
Do you think this will ever go away? Or is it a permanent thing? If you even have any idea, because i'm stumped.
Thanks,
Giu
It's anxiety. It needs talk therapy to learn better ways of dealing with stress.
If you are only having sex with partners who you've both been tested for std's, then you know their status and know you have nothing to be afraid of. If a partner does test + for a std, it can be dealt with before you start being sexually active together. Even herpes can be gotten down to a 1-2% risk/year of transmission as long as the person infected knows they are infected. Condoms also help a heck of a lot too with all std's especially if they go on when the clothes come off and not just wait until actual insertion to apply them.
grace
oh my god. I have the same problem and didn't know anyone else felt that way...
Mine started this year where i started getting paranoid about having warts... then i got the hpv first shot vaccination (helps but doesn't cure it) and im in a phase now again about warts. I hook up with a few guys consistently that i know are clean and ALWAYS use a condom. Yes Totally paranoid even with that, but it comes after. Shaving!? Makes it worse. Started getting bad ingrown hairs that would freak me out so i had lazer removal done a few times but ingrown hairs still come up now and again.
I have no idea what it is, anxiety? Guilt from the lifestyle? It makes me so mad because im a strong minded person, who is very social and fun. I can't talk to anyone else about it because they just dont understand the irrational paranoia. Getting checked helps for piece of mind but it doesn't last long. I went to a therapist for a while but it didn't seem to help too much (and is expensive) I try to just tell myself i'm being stupid but the stress is still there.
I don't know if it helps you to know, but i feel the same way. Any ideas yet?
I agree with Vance. The best way to deal with something like this is through therapy. You sound like you have some insight into your issue... and even just recognizing that an issue is exists is a great start. There is a lot of scare tactics and stigma associated with STDs in our society, so it is no wonder that people freak out about them. However, it sounds like there is something more to your concerns and pattern of behavior. Valium can help ease the anxiety and give you an opportunity to work on the root of the problems.
Best of luck..
Start seeing a therapist. Best way to deal with something is to talk about it.