july 8 i made the worst decision ever. i never had sex before i was so curious and i hooked up with somebody i did not know (not going to give an idea how i hooked up so other wont get the idea and be carless like me) i feel so stressed cant focus on the things i do. it is killing me. i did not know her. i just had vaginal sex for like 7 mins. and i was done. today is almost 7 weeks. i been thru hell. i was so addict to watching porn and i felt guilty for watching it. i wanted a scapegoat and i was curious about sex. and this hooking was it i did it and it is not worth it. not even 0% worth it. ive a learned it a lot. but it is so scary to learn sad, frustrated, mad, angry. i have a gf she is a virgin. i was too till that day. i only kissed her once a while and made out like 2 times since then. she thinks i dont like her or something. truth is what i thought was a lie. i thought i loved her. but if i did i would have not done it (we planned to wait till marriage and then i screwd up) but now i love her. and i know it. once i know i am STD free. i want to give her the biggest kiss ever! ( question i made out twice after this incident will she get any STD? i deserve getting it but i hope i did not i never want to give her any disease, she deserves better. this one unprotected sex is killing me. i am going to be faithful, try not to watch porn ( after this incident i lost intrest in porn)
after 9days of the incident i got tested for : chalmadyia, gonoorha, syhillis and hiv all were negative but i believe that was too early. so i got tested after 5 weeks for the same thing and it was all negative. but i am worried about herpes, after a month from that day i had like a razor cut on either side of my mouth first i got it in the right corner and then left but about 5days it is getting healed, it doest hurt when left by itself but only when i touch it it sligtly hurts it hurted the most when i opend my mouth since it was stretching it hurted. my skin on the lips tore but there was no soar or pain or anything it was my lips skin were peeling 3 diff spots but never did it burn or hurt and i did not see the peeling the next day. when i close my mouth it looked normal, but when i open at the edge of my mouth is were i see the razor cut. my throat kinda feels discomfort or like needel pricking, not all the time but sometime. and i cough now and i can feel mucus dripping back and it felt like this for month now, doctor gave me azithromycin for cough it was week 3 after the encounter and i tested on after 9 days and again on week 5 all were negative, can it be false negative since i took azithromycin on week 3? also the next day after my encounter i felt like a burnin sesation or like a heat sensation on my stomach, and i started to pass lose stool, sometimes once a day sometime like 2 time or sometimes 3 max, most of the time i passed lose stool and i could see food particles, i never payed close attentation but after this incident i pay close attention to anything and it freaks me out and make me wanna cry and sad. please help me what test to get for and i can assure you i never had a STD before, i was not only virgin but i always have a clean smooth face no blister or anything i had in the past. currently it is just the razor cut on the both side of my mouth which seems to be healing. can you please help me and guide me what test and when so i can be sure this stomach bug thingy and feeling bit discomfort in the throat and recently this razor cut are not from std. please help and guide me. i want to be happy again, i never realized how perfect my life was before and one unprotected sex can kill all your happiness. please guide me till i know i am STD free. thank you very much!