I'm listening. I have this as well... I think. Every time I get a new psych I get a different label slapped on (antisocial, borderline, OCD, bipolar I and schizoid are the ones I remember.) Honestly the only ones I agree with from my limited understanding of the symptoms are OCD and schizoid. Probably bipolar as well but my meds help with that so for all intents and purposes I'll ignore it.
I'm female so I've had less trouble with the sex issue but if you're like me you'll find that if/when you do lose your virginity that sex is really not a big deal at all. Porn makes it seem like this huge deal but it's really not all its cracked up to be. The first time is especially disappointing. I know of a few people who went to a prostitute the first time to get over the anxiety, though that has the potential to become an addiction in itself (plus you don't want to catch anything.)
I have to say my biggest schizoid problem is the total lack of motivation to do anything or talk to anyone. It totally transcends laziness, I'm like a narcoleptic sloth. I have no friends and don't talk to my family and though I don't particularly want any closer relationships, I wish I wanted them. If that makes any sense. I'm pretty much complacent with everything in my life, but I wish I had the desire or motivation to improve my situation or find a job that pays above minimum wage. Again I'm probably making no sense here but in case someone does understand where I'm coming from then please accept a virtual high five.
After a few weeks of research on Bi-Polar and BPD, I found information online last night about Schizoid Personality Disorder. Not really what I was hoping to find, but it does explain a lot. I'm 35, 2 years 9 months off of booze, and I just recently went through med changes with benzos for anxiety and I quit drinking caffeinated coffee (a life long habit). I've been at my new job for less than 2 months (after getting fired in May and being out of work for 5 months), I haven't had a stable relationship ever really, and my relationship with my family is incredibly strained at best. I just got a psychiatric evaluation started with my therapist last week and blood work done at a lab yesterday. I don't have an appt. to go back to my regular doc (also new, I've seen her once) till after Christmas to go over the results of everything. For now, nothing is confirmed but my original diagnosis of Severe Clinical Depression with Suicidal Tendencies, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and PTSD. I'm trying to educated myself by reading everything I can online and I ordered 3 books last night written by people with Borderline Personality Disorder. I plan to get information on DBT and I'm hoping my therapist can start using this therapy in my sessions instead of Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, which I've had for a while now. My heart goes out to anyone dealing with this, it's not fun.
its more common than we think...ironicly i seem to run into those people all the time i dont know if its cause they sence i have something up with me or where just attracted to those like us but most of my friends end up having some dissorder or another...so its good to know your not alone! here if you wanna talk. im new to this thing so yea.
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I have it.