I am taking Zyprexa 20mg and Clozapine 300mg. At certain times in the day, every day, I get really agitated inside my head and don't know what to do to make it stop. My thoughts are talking me down, but not exactly telling me to commit suicide which is why I'm confused and not sure if these are suicidal thoughts caused by the medicine. I am 26 years old. These thoughts never stop, doesn't matter what I do or what I think. Every action I make is wrong and I feel my thoughts are leading me to suicide, but they aren't exactly saying it. Like they are giving me a hint or a clue. All I know is, this is not me. I am usually a happy person and look forward to the future. But every good thought that comes feels like it's blocked and turned into a horrible one.