What does this sound like?

I'm not sure what this is but it's really scary.

Alright, i think maybe this could be some kind of disorder. Here are the symptoms

I always get real life and my thoughts messed up. I either sub consiously make up some kind of conversation with someone that wasn't real at all and not know which one was real.

Sometime when i sit down and relax, it's like i go into a kind of dream mode of me doing something; like the first time it happened i was reading a magazine and then after like a minute of thinking this was real, all of the sudden i was back to where i was watching tv. It happens all the time.

Then i hear voices that aren't there. I get soooo paranoid. Then i was walking down my hallway and i saw myself smiling at me and i just stopped and almost fricken died. I really couldn't move. I was shocked and just got really confused. I remember talking to her (myself) but i don't know if it was real or not. I don't even know if i even got up and saw her or anything. Maybe i was just sitting down and imagined the whole thing. It happened once 2 days ago.

I read a lot and think about the characters a lot. Then i imagine myself in their situation and it's like i was actually in that situation. I had a panic attack cause of a situation i got from a book, that i thought i was in. It wasn't real cause a situation like that would never happen.

I'm 16 and i have schizophrenia in my family. My mom's dad was schizophrenic. She says she hears voices that aren't there, but she said she's never seen anything. Me and her are the only ones i guess.

My sister also says i'm emotionally cold. She says it looks like i don't have any feelings. I guess she's partially right. I don't think emotions register with me right. When i do something wrong to someone she says i just stare and act like i don't care. I don't really remember when i get mad. I do have feelings though. I also have high anxiety and paranoia.

Could this be some kind of onset of something?

[paranoid_cataclysm]

You need to talk to a psychiatrist as they're the only one who can diagnose you because that stuff is definitely not normal.  Be sure to tell them everything even if it means you have to write it all down to remember.  I went through a lot of what you were talking about and more before I got on medication which I'm sure you probably didn't include every single thing in your description anyway as it's hard to remember it all and it caused them to suspect I have schizof*cknia myself.  I was told by my therapist that an emotionally flat effect is the result of depression and I've read that auditory hallucinations by themselves are the most common manifestation of the hallucinations.

[ILADVOCATE]

I had the onset of schizoaffective disorder at age 13 and didn't start treatment until 5 years later. It was difficult to live with, without treatment and it would have been easier for me if I had started early. It does seem that its potentially inherited and what you describe with the emotional withdrawal (difficulty relating to people and understanding emotional interactions is part of schizophrenia) as well as auditory hallunications does sound like it but only a psychiatrist could provide a diagnosis but it would be worth speaking to one. Schizophrenia and schizoaffective disorder (schizophrenia with a mood disorder) are treatable and people respond more favorable the earlier treatment is started from what they are finding.

[MoreInsight]

Many psychologic experiences have their roots in diet.  Something one eats all the time, or drinks all the time, or something one ate or drank a while ago.  It could be natural chemicals in the water supply, or commercial chemicals.  It could be peanut mold. One has to explore the issue.

The best thing anyone can do is begin cleansing their diet of junk.  Junk tends to be any food product made in a factory.  Fasting is certainly beneficial but many modern people can't handle the concept of not eating for seven days.  Fasting helps people get to the root of their problems whatever they are.

Basic cleansing begins when people stop eating junk and just eat whole foods, as fresh as possible.  Salads made with a variety of greens are a good place to start.  There are certainly juices one can make in a blender that will do wonders to eliminate problems.  Try half of a small onion with a stick of celery and a cup of water in the blender.  Its pungent but extemely cleansing.  Drink slowly and understand the Egyptians said onions can cure 8000 diseases.

Once a person gets a clean diet goiing they can understand their mind better.

[Julie359]

You really do need to go see your doctor, i agree with all the above this is not normal and sorry to tell you but schizophrenia can be passed down through families, in my family there are several people with it, greatgran, mum, uncle and a couple of cousins.  

Have you confided in any of your family or friends about this?  I really think you should if you haven't, at a time like this you shouldn't feel like your on your own or your the only person who is going through this.  You may be very surprised by how supportive the people around you can be, including the health professionals.