Wow u really are awesome, thanks a bunch. It's justbhard now of days to find a food woman and I'm tired of empty surface encounters. So that makes me freak out thinking I'll be alone for ever. But until i do you're right time to put my energy into myself.
Sweetheart, keep on with your anger counseling and some day, you won't have a relationship with painful drama in it, just happy sweetness. Don't try to force something that is not working, and don't torture yourself with "she did this and I did that but it was because she did this" kind of thinking. All it does is spin over and over in your head, and it does YOU no good. Keep in mind, please, that your goal is a serene and happy life for you. Not for justification and head trips against someone else in hopes she will change her behavior. A. She won't change her behavior. B. It does not matter what she does, you are interested in you for the long term, and it won't do your long-term life any good to obsess over someone like her. Do you remember the saying "Never date a woman crazier than you are"? Guys say it for a reason.
Good luck. She is not the prize. Being right is not the prize. Developing a happy and healthy life for yourself, that is the prize.
She was out with her girlfriends on vday but come on no txt after I been trying all day cause sat. We were on ok terms? It's almost like I know she will eventually crash and like you said she's lost but mad and "over" the dead horse we were beating. She had me arrested because I pretended to pop the tires I bought her after she threw a phone at me I had on my account for her that I wanted back when we split the first time. She called first ayer two weeks telling me im the only one that understands her but then we got bad again after a month. Man I wish I had no feelings while dealing with all this and my parents. She also told me that I was putting a guilt trip on her when I said I can't believe you're doing this while my dads sick. She couldn't see that I was confused because she told me she still loved me but I would never kick someone I love while there way way down.
Thanks for letting me know there's still some decent people in the world. My final words to her were mean, I figured blood for blood and though I know god would have down different I let my anger take control and sadness set it of 2 years gone. But she played with my head by txting me the sat. Before valentines day to say goodnight and didn't talk to me at all on vday so I went to tgi Fridays to give myself piece of mind to see what she was really doing . I.e with another guy or whatever. I yelled cause i was heartbroken that I could be so focused on a girl and on the biggest girl day of the year she acted as if I was nobody. Yes she was doing the whole "need space" gimmick but why play games like that. I do feel bad but she went at my neck. My mom and my close girl cousin said I should leave it how it is and not to send another letter telling her I went at her feature insecurities because she tore me apart with false words that made me feel used and betrayed. I always told her if she fell out of love or found another I would accept it with respect. Things happen. But the whole game playing and throat cutting killed me inside when yes I did have a scary temper but I gave her my all and would have never let her fall or be harmed by anything that was outside our us and our wishes. I almost want her to see this but it will take time for her to pin point the reality of her issues. I should just let it be right now and see which direction the universe pulls me right? Even if I txt her she would just think I'm trying to lure her back or take it as I'm talking down to her. Even think I'm desperate which I don't care to play the who's gonna call first game because it's my life too and I needed to know what to do. Now I sit and deal with the uncontrollable which is thinking of her and another guy bonding and other sickening things but that's normal when no matter what the persons flaws or what happened you stil care and I dont see that as desperate or somewhat a fool, it's just what's instilled inside of me.
I love AnnieBrooke, lol, so awesome!
But Ricky, you do sound like a good person. Not to say that your ex isn't a good one either but at this point it's almost like the blind leading the blind. People can't see what they aren't ready to and some are more comfortable in the 'victim' role. At one point, as sad it is what happened to her from a person she trusted utmost, one has to let those past things go. I speak from experience. We can't control what happened to us as children but when we become adults, it is ultimately our decision on how we let it affect the future. It isn't easy but very doable. She has to want this and she isn't where you are right now. Maybe one day, as she matures or gets tired of being tired, she will reach out to a professional for the help she needs. She is hurting and lost. She doesn't know how to express herself or to accept love because apart of her doesn't love herself...doesn't feel worthy of it. She has a lot of walls that she built up and she isn't doing it on purpose. Those walls are a defense mechanism--it's all about self preserverance. I'm sure she loves you, but she is hurting very much and needs to seek help on her own terms before accepting help from you. She probably feels resentful that you have 'seen' her--if you can understand what I mean. You telling her often that she needs help or may be better suited with another woman will always come off as an attack to her...Sounds off, and it is, that she can't accept that help from you. You're too close.
It will be hard, but until you fully get over her you just have to love her from afar and keep working on yourself. At the end of the day, it's all any of us can do.
All the best.
I'm sorry it's over and not really over, for you. You sound like a decent person, trying hard to get past your anger issues. I'd keep going with the therapy and help for the anger, and I'd let go of your dreams of either helping or telling this girl anything. She has her OWN demons to fight, and you are not going to get anywhere trying to tell her what they are. You have Your own demons to fight (the things that are behind the explosive anger), just keep focusing on figuring that out.
One thing I know for sure is that the healthier we get, the healthier people we draw into our sphere. Baying at the moon for someone with a lot of problems is trying to progress backward. She has to go her own way, you will never hear her say "You are right, thank you for your words of wisdom." The sooner you drop the need to hear it, the better off you will be.
" so you know not to trust men" sorry for the type o
I also told her that I could have easily gotten a hang around girl if I needed someone to cling to, why choose her. I damn sure wouldn't have spent tons of money on her if she was just "some girl"