I never do these kinds of things and there was no 'paranoia and anxiety for stupid people' tab, but... here it goes... My boyfriend and I are intamate, but we've never had sex. I know next to nothing about sex ed. Two days ago, He ejaculated on my hands, and stupid me just wiped them off as best I could. I was driven home about 30 to 45 minutes later, and was home about 10 to 15 mins. I still felt aroused, so I went in my room and masturbated. I have horrid paranoia and anxiety, and i'm terrified to think if there was any live sperm left. I woke up an hour ago having a panic attack, and I feel sick, but I think that's just anxiety. I have been on the pill, but i'm so, so bad at taking it... Should I look into emergency contraceptive, or am I being stupid? I'm about to be twenty, and I'm autistic. It's six in the morning, please someone tell me I'm stupid and to go to sleep...