I have been married for 3 years to a wonderful man. Well one night a couple years ago we had our good friends over who are married and became good friends of ours. They propositioned us with swapping spouses. At first I was extremely upset and scared that of course my husband would leave me if I acted on this temptation. We talked it over and my husband seemed intrigued and we went ahead and did it. So every so often when we saw them we would also engage in this behavior. Me and the other husband then decided if it was ok for us to have sex during these occasions then why wouldn't it be ok if we also did it outside of those times. I lied to him and said that my husband was ok with it. So we started meeting about once or twice a week at our house for these sexual encounters. This went on for some time but the guilt started to set in and we both knew what we were doing was wrong. I took it upon myself to tell his wife what was going on, and I also confessed to my husband. Of course they both were very upset that we had betrayed their trust and our marriages started to fall apart. She threatened divorce and my husband said he could never trust me again - our marriage is on the verge of collapse. We want to stay together for the sake of our daughter and we do love each other very much. I feel so terrible, so out of control, so dishonest. I want to hold my marriage together, I have given up on my other sexual goings on and have committed myself to my husband. I don't know why I gave in to temptation so easily, how I rationalized what I was doing was just a minor misgiving, and I really wasn't doing anything wrong. How can I change for good, and how can I repair my trust in myself and in my husbands eyes?